pointless
Friday, November 28, 2008
this word popped into my head coz i just realized i had another blog called "pointless stories" that was the brainchild of val and I lol. there's only one story on it right now, go check out pointless-stories.blogspot.com haha
well anw, kinda angsty right now, prolly coz i'm mood-swinging and pms and all. really hate my periods. i had my previous one like 2-3 weeks ago only! it's not fair. (omg i just read my pointless story and am totally reminded of how ridiculous it was lol. funtimes) SEE? damn mood swings. so anyways, back to the angst
a lotta pple know how i feel about staying in the states - i want to. haha. just that i suddenly realized that my friends are way too important for me to make such a big decision. i want to live in the states, yes, and i have friends here too and people are nice and all
but it doesn't beat people you have history with! was just spending time over the past 2 days with chris and his high school friends and felt REEEEAAALLY out of place. it's not that it wasn't fun, it's that they have all the memories and people they know to talk about and while it was fascinating, it just isn't easy for me to fit in. all the time I was thinking about mich, tong, eu and how we'd chat about the silliest stuff. and also nj people and how we'd gossip about all our schoolmates. it was exactly what they were doing and all of a sudden i was totally craving it
even with just ben i can gossip about stuff like our og people.. and mep people have stuff to talk about too. i mean, i'm sure i can make new friends here and make new memories and stuff, but i know i'm unwilling to give up all those memories and internal jokes (making new ones now with nic and steph lol)..
like with the SC people
misc: midhelle, miss beh, irene, airpork, huanzhugege songs lol and all those internal jokes! and people to talk about!
edna+xyz: chats chats and more chats
with HNL people:
lol a lot of dramatic history aside, i miss so much! i miss playing at decoder's, hanging out, going for outings, kboxing, omg so much fun stuff especially with all the crazy crazy people! kor+shui+william+wenz+junyi etc!
with YJ people
xp, farhan, lots of lewd stuff... HAHA. and arhben's wolfness. and also that i can talk about ANYTHING with ben! ( honored right, ben? haha)
with NJ people
omg so many so many so many internal jokes, memories etc. smelly feet versus smelly mouth, climbing gates, hiding in toilets, skipping school, dinosaur meatballs, fantasies (LOL), more explicit stuff... omg so so so many more. just too much to list. and you know i miss talking about these things... thank God for Val to be there for me <3
with SIM/UB people
not so much internal jokes but we also have things to talk about! esp annnnnnnn dearie
with newfound buffalo/singapore people
steph+nic!! omg the most internal jokes created in one night possible. dogs=balls, thickness>length, sextalksextalksextalk, hot tubs, hot guys, hot girls, 7 princesses, omg so much moreeee.
and last but not least, family:
maternal side: cousins! omg lots to talk about tooooo. like DIE HAN, DIE and heroesssss and pretending to be jon's girlfriend, and teasing Ding about homosexuality, and wei's dancing, and cards and stupid flash games and moreeee
paternal side: cousins too! charmaine mainly haha. bet you're reading this cuzzy. haha. chatting about guys mainly!
mother+father+brother: well, chatting about everything. and i just have to be there for them..
yea. just needed to know i had friends that i had lots of history with. kinda feel a little displaced right now. i'm quite sure it's the mood swing causing this but still.
ok so anyway i will (or maybe not) blog about other stuff soon but yea you know well enough by now that I almost only blog when i'm feeling down or when i've done some photoshop stuff or when there's been a lot of fun that HAS to be posted.
well there HAS been a lotta fun stuff but well. HAHA. i'm lazy to blog! plus i have papers to finish writing. suffice to say that there's been LOTS of funnnnnnnnnn especially with my girls nic+steph. oh i love our word association game. i will truly never look at dogs the same way again. nor mermaids. hehe.
i'm taking photos of everything to remember how everything looks. sigh. bye guys~
so said cher @ 10:59 AM
