Sunday, February 8, 2009
hmm i'm in a really weird mood now. i'm feeling the serious urge to write some prose but can't think of a premise. bah. so here I am writing a blog entry instead. haha.
been busy lately i guess. school and stuff. went to K at last!! Met with abby for a celebration sorta thing of our grades.. my Dean's list thing (a bit overrated actually) and her 4.0 GPA for last sem... I asked Joce along coz I was dying to K and she and I both wanted to K =) All in all it was fun =D
Hmm then i guess much of the rest of the time was school. Was running myself to exhaustion i guess. Kinda died by the time Friday came along. I'm just so tired lately, so lazy to go anywhere. I don't have the mood for anything. I know why though, I'm just not gonna share it here. Haha.
I realize I'm starting to bottle things up and I know it's unhealthy but I'm starting to feel that I shouldn't bother my friends again. They're busy, have their own problems, and plus, my problems are boring. So anyways I think this bottling up thing is not too good for my emotional health because I'm getting extremely irritable. I get annoyed by the slightest things now. Like right now i'm really annoyed coz this boy in my estate keeps singing really annoyingly and loudly... And my parents keep making way too much noise and my dad keeps screaming for me to go downstairs to do stupid stuff like set up the karaoke system for him or watch some freakish old-school movie which i have NEGATIVE interest in. That's right, NEGATIVE interest. Not only do I have zero interest in it, I HATE IT.
Gah. Like I said, i'm easily annoyed. One little spark that lit up my past week though, was that my final package from Buffalo finally arrived! And I feel the timing couldn't have been more right because I was feeling at my lowest, walking home from the bus stop and angsting as is usual for me nowadays.. I skulked into my room and noticed a huge box in front of my bed and my heart took a slow but happy leap.. And I was happy for the next 2 hours or so =) I'm really really glad coz all my books and scrapbooking stuff and all are here!
So nowadays I spend my free time lolling around, reading my books. At last. It's a kind of bliss for me. Well you know, a small kind of bliss in the midst of all the angsting. haha.
Busy week ahead. Interviews and school and meeting friends. Yea. I really wish I could bury myself in work. Alright. Bye guys~
so said cher @ 12:23 AM
