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again in the same day!

2009-06-29T06:33:00.000-07:00

ok so i went on and did more ps stuff... got me a whole new bunch of patts so was playing around!! here's what i made. we used to call these "fansigns"... not sure if fansigns exist anymore in the newly elitist "everything validates" webdesigning world.. ><

So anyways, here goes...

Original Image:

And below is the fansign!

likey? no? INTRIGUED? heh.

oh yea picture features Elisha Cuthbert.. Probably from Eleganxia PSDs.. which might not exist anymore seeing as this was taken from my stock collection from years ago.. ><

yet another photoshop effort!! ><

2009-06-29T02:50:00.000-07:00

so yea I've found a new technique and put it to the test again. Somehow didn't achieve the effect I wanted but managed to use it to get better coloring.. So here goes!

here's the original image!

then after the color edits...

and after the "new" technique!

Sooo.. Waddya think?

and again!

2009-06-17T04:46:00.000-07:00

haha oops i made another one! here goes:

original pic

one of my favorite pics of me =)

ok so first i erased the bg and added black... to get the picture below.. (oh yeah i also changed the color of my top to suit my layout more lol)

yupyup then played around with colors... (you can see some parts of my hair are differently colored in the picture above.. coz i changed the color of my top... that problem is rectified in the picture below) and this is the more human looking picture:

wheee =) looks great! ok then come the color edits or curve edits..

(pic above has a gaussian blur applied - for the dreamy effect =))

(above) different kinda blur lol

(above) curve edit i think

applied a shape blur on top of curve

added embellishments and voila again! this time the lines around the pic weren't done as well lol i miscalculated some stuff hehe.

so waddya think? from

this... to..

this... to..

this! =)

tag! haha. ok back to layout making! =D

more photoshop work!

2009-06-17T03:57:00.001-07:00

i've been in the mood to re-enter the world of webdesign so i've been playing around with some pictures.. here's what I did today! =)

original image

i quite like this picture of me! lol=) edited the colors to make them more human.. haha

slightly better! next, i erased the background of the fitting room and put in a black background (to check if i'd missed out erasing anything) [oh oh i also erased the darkness below my eyes lol]

then i started the stylized color editing! =) step 1, selective color channels

then edited the brightness/contrast levels

added a slight blur and more color adjusting..

you can start to see all the not-so-well-erased parts lol. but after some erasing work, i'm done with this! =) then changed the background to semi-transparent white =)

added some embellishments and... voila!

i like the colors =)

alright that's all for now. gonna work on new layout for possible new website =D am excited! are you?? =D

blogging again!

2009-06-12T22:14:00.000-07:00

hmmms i really had a lot to blog about but i kinda forgot what it was about... haha i really should write these things down. maybe it'll come back to me heh

anyways, i made a wallpaper out of a picture from MayVacay (holiday with val to London Germany and Cornwall) and decided to post up the deets here! heh.

Ok so here's the original picture i used...

After editing the colors...

Very cartoony eh? haha i like it so sshh. heh. Yep, then my original intention was actually to add in some pictures to make it look more like a wallpaper but... it turned out like so:

Quite ugly right? The thumbnails could be smaller though haha so i decided just a simple one would be good..

Yea.. I guess this was the best i could do lol. Gah! I wanted to do something nicer! My PS skills are going down the drain man =( Sigh. Gotta work on it more!

Alrighty that's all for this entry... Till I remember what I wanted to blog about, this will be it. heh.

Kays see y'all!!! ( should be soon enough, i kinda remember what it was already! =))

2009-06-10T08:18:00.000-07:00

wanted to blog but am suddenly exhausted.

have lots of words in me just waiting to flow though!

and i know no one reads this blog anymore lol. that's all good. i kinda prefer it that way

so many thoughts!

1) too many friends
2) the downsides of wealth

amongst others.

comin up soon i suppose! for now, am too sleepy. ciaoooo~

ga.ga. in the house!!

2009-03-25T06:50:00.000-07:00

i'm lovin' Lady Gaga's album The Fame! Right now I'm predicting that the next single to come off that album will be Starstruck, featuring FloRida! It's an AWESOME track. Other great tracks in The Fame I love include Summerboy, The Fame and BoysBoysBoys.. Another track I'm lovin now is Electric Feel by MGMT! Haha.

So I had a great relaxing week, with no work due for once and some days off work to rest.. (ok so there was work. i didn't realize i had ntr exam.. ugh, let's forget about that for now) So here I am to update you guys on stuff!

WORK
So yea, I actually wanted to blog a little bit about work but I think i'd better not go into too much detail because y'know, people get fired for blogging about their work.. The first day of work was great, everyone was nice and I really enjoyed the work environment (apart from the damn blasted Sun).. I think it's great to work in a place where everyone is close and welcomes you to their 'family' and is essentially nice! And of course, having the occasional eye-candy helps too haha but I'm not gonna elaborate on that because it's all past now. A lot of staring, same-bus-taking, lunch hours and such other stuff was involved. LOL.

Some pictures of the amazing work environment =):

Isn't the scenery just amazing??? Imagine if you worked here!

The pontoon

One of the boats.. And myself pointing at it kinda. haha

Inside.. The navigation/steering system. I can navigate this boat! Mwahaha

Lately, though, not-so-pleasant things have taken place and as it's a "breaking news" kinda thing, I'm gonna see how it goes before i go into detail. Originally I was actually very impressed with the way the organization works - training their employees to be professional in dealing with guests as well as making sure that the guest comes first etc. I was truly impressed with the amount of effort that went into making sure that the very best level of excellence in customer service was achieved. However, apparently some other things take precedence over certain other things.. Suffice to say not all stakeholders are satisfied.. (wo0t putting something from MGG150 into use here! lol)

So anyways, I just hope things don't get too bad. And in the meantime, I need to keep reminding myself to apply for that thing I've wanted to apply for for awhile now.. Actually 2 things.. Hmm. Not gonna say anything yet because nothing's confirmed.. Will tell when the time's right =) You guys know me! I will tell! haha.

Next update... OUTINGS
haha yea.. a LOT of them! I dunno how to update about this but yea had a lot of fun lately.. Mainly with brunch buddies, family, val, etc.. I need to meet a lot of people! XYZ, Edna, etc! For updates on the outings (not complete but most of my outings get posted there) go to Facebook! Haha.

Another thing is that I've got TWITTER! Yay haha now I'm gonna skive off on blogging and tweet instead! Way easier and you guys can keep up with my life in a more up-to-date way! lol. My tweet name is Cherla so go look for me and FOLLOW me! hehe.

Meh, I had a buncha stuff to blog about but really forgot most of it. Eh i've started (sort of) writing a journal so yea hahaha, i've got an outlet for my innermost thoughts kinda. I'm also secretly (well, not so secret anymore haha) hoping that it gets published. LOL. C'mon, I really think my life plays out like some kinda soap opera, so that'd make a great read. HEHE.

Well I think i'm gonna stop here today. I've kinda got stuff to say but I dunno how to say it so I'm gonna either say it elsewhere or.. Yea well. haha. Rightos. Till the next time, CIAO PEOPLE and take care=) LOVES!

i dunno i dunno i dunno. it's all so weird=( can it finally be right?

too dang busy!!!

2009-03-18T21:18:00.001-07:00

ayeee! long time no blog!

like i said, i've been busy busy busy! just finished rushing mgg150 project... now gotta concentrate on ntr lab and ntr paper... it's all shite.

but anyways, i have some stuff i wanna share with you guys! I've been watching a movie a day (online) and i've come across some interesting stuff.. Ok so the Halloween series is awesome and you guys should totally check it out. Come on man, a whole film series dedicated to my favorite festival? Awesome. ok

Another thing I wanted to share was, does anybody remember the reality tv series "Murder in Smalltown X"??? Omg i utterly loved that show! Ok so I was just wiki-surfing and came across the term snuff film and jumping here and there eventually reminded me of this show so I wiki-ed it and now I just wanna watch it all over again! Haha so yea, it's a great series, people, go watch it!!

Some great MISTX links:
mistx blog

Ok so i used the term "some" loosely. Big deal. Anyways yea then I also found out about an interesting Jap series called Guinea Pig! Something like Za Ginni Piggu.. Yea it's cool too, go check it out. And also something called Red Room, which also seems very very cool.. Haha

If i sound like I'm rushing, it's coz i AM.. For some reason which I don't know really. Haha. Oh and DMC opens today!!!! I wanna watch it! But i'm so super broke. Oh and also, I watched Beauty and the Geek this morning. It's freaking hilarious. lol. So i'm gonna try to watch more of it. Yup

That's all for today's blog guys. Too too busy!! CIAOOOO.

not saying no. depends on who's asking

songs and such

2009-03-10T09:35:00.000-07:00

again, busy busy. this week's a total killer week. com326 presentation(speech) on tuesday, mgg quiz on Thursday, work evaluation thing on Wednesday, Article discussion for NTR throughout the week, MGG project writeups due Thursday.. Somebody kill me please!

i'm wondering if i've bitten off more than i can chew. I'm also totally shuddering at the thought of tan lines developing =( I think i'm totally suited for an office job. Just sit on my ass all day and develop cellulite. Heh. Gah!

Planning for the vacay with val too.. Gah really really busy =( Work's all sorts of fun so far, but I'm gonna be trained for Boat crew tomorrow, which is the one with maximum sun exposure, which I really really really really don't want, so I'm gonna see if I can get ticketing opstaff instead. But whatevs, work's ok.. I'm amazed by my ability to wake up early every workday and spend about 9 hours at work. It's dreary but ohwells, it's a job..

I'd really rather have some kind of office job. Bah.

Blog more next time. 2 songs to share today. here goes:

Breakeven by The Script
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no

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Mm~hmm.. next song:

Back At Your Door by Maroon 5
From the moment the lights went off
Everything had changed
Lie awake in an empty room
In my head it all feels the same

Like the taste of the day you left
That still lingers on my breath
And the dampness of tears that left
A stain where you had wept

All alone with the negligee
That still hangs off of my bed
I keep meaning to give it away
But I just leave it there instead

No need to cry about it
I cannot live without it
Every time I wind up back at your door

Why do you do this to me?
You penetrate right through me
Every time I wind up back at your door

3 more days 'til I see your face
I’m afraid it’s far too much
Cook a meal and fix up the place
Dial your number, hang it up

If I took you for granted
I apologize for acting tough
You’re my reason for living
And there’s no way I’m giving up, oh

Don’t need to cry about it
I cannot live without it
Every time I wind up back at your door

Why do you do this to me?
You penetrate right through me
Every time I wind up back at your door

Now every evening is a bitter fight
And I’m eating home alone on a Friday night
I know what your friends say
“You’re just wasting your love and time”
I will never let you change your mind

No need to cry about it
I cannot live without it
Every time I wind up back at your door

Why do you do this to me?
You penetrate right through me
Every time I wind up back at your door

No need to cry about it
I may just die without it
Every time I wind up back at your door

Why do you do this to me?
You penetrate right through me
Every time I wind up back at your door

Every time I wind up back at your door
Every time I wind up back at your door

Haha it's just a really nice song =) I can't wait for Maroon 5's next albummm!! Please give me more music Adam Levine and gang! whee. Ok off to sleep now. Work tomorrow. Ciao people.

xoxo

giving up and letting go. it's hard to do but it has to be done.

exhausted

2009-03-08T11:06:00.000-07:00

hey all... just a note to say i'm alive and barely kicking! been really really busy, any time i get to myself at all is precious and i am surviving on precious little sleep as it is already. so i'll blog just a lil later, but right now i need my Z's.. love you all, blog soon

be safe <3

song of the day...

2009-03-01T00:32:00.000-08:00

man, maroon 5 really knows exactly how I feel. This song effectively sums up my situation right now.

Nothing Lasts Forever by Maroon 5
It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Though we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Yup. Every single word in that song is so true. ok. not really, some parts don't apply but whatevs.. yea well i gtg for now. Ciao, arrivederci

new layout

2009-02-28T05:56:00.001-08:00

time for a change, i think. this layout features Taylor Momsen whom I don't really like, but the original layout i'd wanted to change to had a problem so, yea make do with this.

just watched He's Just Not That Into You. Awesome. I love Justin Long's character! Hahaha. shit man. ok explain more next time

blog again soon. ciaoo

2009-02-28T02:05:00.000-08:00

hmm. not in a very good place/mood lately... Some people know why, others don't... I don't know if I wanna talk about it coz I don't really wanna face it. I'm very very escapist. But anyways, decided to come in and post some songs. They're really happy, uplifting songs that y'know, make me a bit wistful but yea. Here goes

Kiss Me by Sixpence None The Richer
Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

[Chorus:]
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

[Chorus (repeat)]

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Girl on TV by LFO
>Oooh,Yeahhhh,I'm wishin' on a fallin' star,
wonderin' where you are....I wish...

[Chorus]

I wish for you on a fallin' star,wonderin'
where you are,do I ever cross your mind,In
the warm sunshine,she's from the city of angels,like
Betty Davis,James Dean,and Gable,never know
what she means to me.I fell for the girl that's on TV.

[Verse 1]

Met her at a counter affair,she wore a green dress,and
everybody was there,felt out of place till she looked
into my eyes.Shook your hand around 9 P.M. about
never gonna be the same again.Never had to
be on a movie screen to be the leading lady
in all my dreams...

Shooby-doo-wop,and scooby snacks,met a fly girl
and i can't relax,the only problem is she's
a movie star,Oh,my friends,they won't believe me,if
they could only see me,at the risk of sounding
cheesy,i think i fell for the girl on TV.

[Repeat Chorus]

[Verse 2]

Everybody knows her name,Wanna take a picture and
their glad she came,But I just want to be there when
she's down,down(Be there when she's down)
I don't want her autograph,I just want to call her up
and make her laugh,Never had to be on a movie
screen,To be the leading lady in all my dreams.

Shooby doo-wap & scooby snacks,
I Met a fly girl and I can't relax
The only problem is she's a movie star,
Oh,My friends they won't believe me
If they could only see me,At the risk of sounding
cheezy,I think I fell for the girl on TV.

[Repeat Chorus]

[Bridge]

I'm wishin' on a star....and wonderin' where you are
Do i cross your mind??In the warm sunshine???

[Rich's Rap]

Yeah,So I wish for you on a bright shining star,
Every where I look there you are,There you are
It's the girl in the green dress,
She took my breath away,And now I look to the sky,
For a better day,To the beach shore and scooby snacks,
I met a fly girl and I can't relax,
Never had to be on a movie screen
Cause she's the leading lady in all my dreams,I wish

[Repeat Chorus]

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I didn't know this song was written for Jennifer Love Hewitt! But it's awesome and really really sweet. I love JLove but some things about her scare me. But anw yea, really sweet. And the last song i'm gonna share is by my new favorite band, Maroon 5 =) I really love the lyrics to this song, they're awesome.

Sunday Morning by Maroon 5
Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning

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I think the lyrics to Sunday Morning are just beautiful. Poetic and just beautiful.

So yea, weird choice of songs but I just had a thought that to me, the best place to be in the world is in a healthy, fulfilling relationship. Haha. A bit idealistic but yea, just a thought.

Been a hectic past few days.. Going to start work on Monday, looking forward to it. I'm supposed to be attached to some guy called Victor for the day, so it won't be too tough on me. Hoping to learn something and really hope I'll enjoy myself! Okok that's all for now, i'm not in a good mood. Talk later.

Ciao people!

Ash Wednesday..

2009-02-24T08:09:00.000-08:00

It's Ash Wednesday.. Time of Lent, time for reflection again..

I was particularly cheered by this hymn in church last Sunday so I thought I'd post it here..

Be Not Afraid
You shall cross the barren desert, but you shall not die of thirst.
You shall wander far in safety though you do not know the way.
You shall speak your words in foreign lands and all will understand.
You shall see the face of God and live.

R.
Be not afraid.
I go before you always.
Come follow me, and
I will give you rest.

2.
If you pass through raging waters in the sea, you shall not drown.
If you walk amid the burning flames, you shall not be harmed.
If you stand before the pow'r of hell and death is at your side, know that
I am with you through it all.

3.
Blessed are your poor, for the kingdom shall be theirs.
Blest are you that weep and mourn, for one day you shall laugh.
And if wicked men insult and hate you all because of me, blessed, blessed are you!

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yup! and then for a song of the day:

太想爱你 by Jeff Chang
慌乱城市中　连风都不自由
热闹的街头　就属我最寂寞
是爱的蛊惑　让我又兴起贪求的念头
爱不爱我　够不够久　会不会走

藏在柔顺背后　你忠于自我
情爱里游走　从不曾见你低头
我却常犯错　像一个太忙太累太傻的陀螺
转个不休　只放不收　停不了手

太想爱你是我抑压不了的念头　想要全面占领你的喜怒哀愁
你已征服了我　却还不属于我　叫我如何不去猜测你在想什么
太想爱你是我抑压不了的折磨　能否请你不要不要选择闪躲
只想爱你的我　太想爱你的我　难道只能在迷雾中猜你的轮廓

Yup, nice song! heh. Ok in the meantime, I'll have to fast tomorrow so I shall see you guys well, tomorrow I guess heh. Ok have a blessed week ahead everyone. I shall blog again soon. =)

2009-02-23T06:29:00.000-08:00

hehe. what a cute picture! =) kinda sums up my mood now lol. BORED BABYYY =)

so i'm supposed to be studying really hard for mgg150 now... stupid course really. i mean, coz of the damn lecturer, not that i have anything against Business&Society. anyways, yea then I was trying to find stuff for COM326's informative speech outline that Ann,Joce and I are doing together.. Hehe yay it's great to be working with Anndear again =)

Anyways, we wanted to do an interesting "How to tell if you're color blind/part-horse/really sleepy" kinda info-speech so we were each searching for stuff.. I found stuff like "How to tell if you're dreaming" haha but I found this one (below) which effectively distracted me for the rest of the day:

How To Tell You're in a Horror Game!

1. If a nice, sunny day turns into a foggy or rainy scenery for no apparent reason and in less than one minute.

2. The city/town you are in is empty, except for those zombies, crazy cult-members and other un-natural beings running around.

3. No matter whose refrigerator or medicine storage you look into, there will always be a health drink or a first-aid kit. (LOL VERY TRUE)

4. Related to number 3, there will be no edible food to be found, but that's okay, because here you can survive without food, water or sleep for days!

5. If you see a child running around, s/he is most likely already dead and spends his/her time drawing freaky pictures, making you do stupid things and making fun of you.

6. If you try to get in contact with the said dead kid, they'll run from you and talk weird stuff if you talk to them.

7. You'll notice that if there are any living people around (and let's include the dead kids in this section as well,) none of them are hurt in any way and monsters won't go even near them unless they're going with you.

8. No matter where you go, there will always be weapons and ammunition at hand.

9. If you're a local, your parents (or at least one of them) are absolutely connected to the local cult that sacrifices people to maintain its peace.

10. You will note that the city/town will have a catholic church and there will always be someone in the confessioning box (hope you know what I mean), ready to tell you their darkest secrets without seeing anything weird about the old priest suddenly becoming a young stranger.

11. All the local dogs are of the same race. Even after their deaths. (ANOTHER TRUE ONE LOL)

12. If you're a man there will always be a hot girl in trouble that you need to rescue and drag along; in worst case scenario, you'll have to make sure she doesn't die along the way. If you're a woman, you'll have to manage on your own.

13. Everyone's white, and the one black guy will be eaten by some monster within 24 hours.

14. Hospitals are covered in blood, most doors are locked and there are mutilated bodies everywhere. You might also hear some screams coming from the other side of the wall. (NODS VIGOROUSLY)

15. If you go to a playground, you will hear little kids chanting something, but you'll never actually get to meet the kids.

16. If you're wounded, no problem! Even if someone drills through your leg, you'll be able to walk just fine.

17. Everyone, even you, knows how to use a gun and what you should do in close-range combat, or any combat for that matter.

18. There will be more dead nurses than there have ever been living nurses in the first place. (never realized this but come to think about it, yes quite true! the damn zombies keep reappearing!)

19. You will get sudden headaches that make the world very gory and whenever you pass out, you will wake up completely unharmed, no matter how many monsters are running around looking for their next meal.

20. By the time you finally get out of this mess, you're the only one still alive or then you and your dumb sidekick (the girl if you're a guy) both made it. You won't get to have sex with her though. Bummer, isn't it?

taken from here

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LOL yes it's so true!!! And it totally reminded me of that show - "Stay Alive" that I really loved and how much into Horror games I am lol. Ok very ashamed to admit this but yea, I really had a thing for horror/room-escape/survival type games awhile back.. Lol. I blame my ITClub history for this. But I played really lame games like House of the Dead and Red Chamber and a lot of mini flash games that i can't remember.. I never invested in games like Doom or Silent Hill or Resident Evil.. Though ok I really really want to play those (still)...

So anyways, that article got me to searching for horror video games and I found this article that's making me really excited to play those games again...

Horror video games, to some extent, can be a much more terrifying experience than just watching a film, mainly because more is at stake when playing a horror game and the user is actively involved in what's on the screen rather than passively watching what's on the TV. Join us as we take a look at the next year or so and the killer lineup of horror games that are on the horizon.

#20: Saw

Virtually nothing about the video game based on the tremendously grisly Saw franchise has been revealed other than the news that the original film's director James Wan will be heavily involved in the project and Billy the Puppet will appear in the Saw game. Our guess is that players will be the ones attempting to escape from traps built to rip them limb from limb.

#19: Sadness

The upcoming survival horror game Sadness has caught our attention for several reasons. The first is the game's plot which involves a mother who must protect her narcoleptic son after they survive a train wreck. The other reason the game has us interested are the graphics which are done entirely in black and white.

#18: Castlevania: Order of Ecclesia

Castlevania, the reason everyone still fears Dracula, will bring the fear back with its newest DS game: Castlevania Order of Ecclesia. This time, you're filling the role of resident hottie Shanoa, battling the gruesome and grotesque monsters of Big D's undead army. It's a potential pocket-size thriller in the works...

#17: Castle Wolfenstein

Even though there have been no updates in many months on the first next-gen Wolfenstein game tentatively titled Castle Wolfenstein, we haven't given up hope that we'll eventually get to wage war against the Nazis and the horrible genetically engineered monsters they've birthed to further the Fuhrer's cause.

#16: Witches

Coming soon to next-gen consoles and PC is the lesser-known title Witches, a medieval horror game where the player will slay a variety of gruesome looking beasties. Making the game sound even sweeter is the fact that you'll deal out your onslaught as three different half-naked Witches.

#15: Alone in the Dark

Forget that abysmal Uwe Boll movie which had absolutely nothing to do with the Alone in the Dark series. The latest game, simply titled "Alone in the Dark," is the first game in the series in seven years and were extremely anxious to see the final product which is said to explore an ungodly evil below New York City's Central Park which is causing mutated trees and other strange occurrences.

#14: Zombie Massacre

Though no one has seen the game in action as of yet, the way 1988 Games describes the gameplay in Zombie Massacre is more than enough to get us pumped to slaughter our way through massive armies of the undead. Zombie Massacre is being developed for the Nintendo Wii and is being described as Blast Corps or Crazy Taxi in the regard that you'll be fighting zombies under a time limit. But unlike the games mentioned, the timer in this game is attached to a nuclear warhead that will obliterate everything living and dead once it runs out. On the surface, Zombie Massacre seems like the closest thing to a game based on Return of the Living Dead's premise.

#13: Siren: Blood Curse

Sony's genuinely horrifying Siren really never got the attention it deserved on the PS2, and that's probably why it's coming to the PS3 in a re-imagining of the original game told through the perspectives of all new characters, a new storyline, a new graphics engine (translation: only the kickass story of the original will be the same). If you're looking for a high quality horror title to play in addition to Resident Evil and Silent Hill, Siren: Blood Curse should be a good game to pick up.

#12: Dead Space

The films Event Horizon, The Thing, and Alien, along with video games like Resident Evil and Silent Hill are all listed by the game's creators as influencing Dead Space, and when you see the trailers for the game you'll know why. The game follows the story of an engineer and his coworkers as they investigate a distress call from a "planet cracker" which destroys dead planets in order to extract valuable minerals inside them. Once they reach the ship, they encounter aliens that aren't quite as affable as E.T.

#11: Project Origin

For those who don't know, Project Origin is the sequel to the popular horror shooter F.E.A.R. and is not called F.E.A.R. 2 due to the previous game's company owning the license. Despite the confusing name, you can expect all the paranormal action of the original and more once we see Project Origin in action, which is toted as having more variety than F.E.A.R. and open-environments.

#10: Operation Darkness

Role-playing games certainly aren't for everybody--but for the horror enthusiast, you may want to check out Atlus's upcoming Operation Darkness which places the player in the role of a British Special Forces unit which has been ordered to take down Adolf Hilter himself, the Nazi war machine, flesh-eating zombies, werewolves, skeletons, and vampires. Yes, this all sounds a bit campy to us too, but it also sounds like an awesome way to relax after a long day at the office.

#9: Dead Rising 2

We all know Dead Rising 2, the sequel to the commercially successful Xbox 360 game which takes place in a huge mall overrun by zombies (which is strikingly similar to the basic premise of George A. Romero's Dawn of the Dead), is probably eventually coming. What we don't know is any details about the game. There's almost zero chance the game will take place in a mall again, so why not place the next one in an underground military facility (like in Day of the Dead) or in a metropolitan city teeming with zombies (like in Land of the Dead). Hell, they could set Dead Rising 2 at Chuck E Cheeses and we'd still play it--actually, that's not a bad idea.

#8: Silent Hill: Homecoming

Konami's atmospherically surreal answer to Resident Evil is any but a poor man's version of the latter--in fact, some people actually prefer Silent Hill's unique brand of frightening imagery to that of RE's. The newest game in the horror franchise, Silent Hill: Homecoming, tells the tale of Alex Shepherd, a soldier who after returning home from the war discovers that his family is missing and eventually finds himself in Silent Hill.

#7: Gears of War 2

While it could be argued that the highly-anticipated Gears of War 2 classifies more as "horror-themed" than "horror," but that doesn't make us any less excited to exchange gunfire with the repugnant Locust race in the next chapter of this gruesome shooter. Did we mention that Gears 2 allows you to engage in chainsaw fights?

#6: Ghostbusters: The Video Game

Do you really need a reason to get excited about Ghostbusters: The Video Game? Well, in case the game's title is not enough for you, the game will feature Slimer, the Stay-Puft Marshmallow Man, and the Ghostbusters, and the films' writer and actor Dan Aykroyd even describes the forthcoming game to essentially be Ghostbusters III, with elements from a never produced "Ghostbusters in Hell" script to be included in the game. It's also the best-looking game based on the film series to date (not that the other Ghostbusters games were anything other than total crap).

#5: BioShock 2

We still have stains in our underpants from the first time we faced off against the hulking menaces known as Big Daddys in the original BioShock. And we can't fathom anything more blood-curdling than the freaks you fight in the original. While BioShock 2 will likely be more of a slight upgrade + continuation of the original (ala God of War to God of War II or GTA3 to GTA Vice City/San Andreas) rather than a full-blown sequel, we still can't wait to get our hands on it.

#4: Left 4 Dead

It's hard to believe that after so many years, no one has made an even half-way decent zombie FPS game, but it looks as though all that's going to change thanks to Left 4 Dead. In the game, players control a team of survivors in a post-apocalyptic world where diseased hordes of the "Infected" are rampant. One of the coolest things we've heard about the game is how players will get the chance to play as several different zombie types, such as a morbidly obese zombie that can spray enemies with projectile vomit (which attracts insects carrying the virus) and also explodes when it dies, splattering its surroundings with its rotten insides.

#3: Doom 4

Although the fourth game in id Software's flagship first-person shooter franchise was announced just weeks ago, we're still beyond stoked that we're officially going to get to battle whatever demonic abominations manage to crawl out of the bowels of hell in Doom 4. Especially if they up the number of much-needed outdoor levels.

#2: Resident Evil 5

Since the original Resident Evil's inception back in 1996, Capcom's survival horror series has remained the king of horror video games, and even from what little has been shown of Resident Evil 5 (it's set in Africa, enemies attack in large swarms, the plot is centered around the origin of the virus, etc.), the game looks like it has the potential to be the best Resident Evil game yet. The mysterious new sack-headed enemy in RE5 looks like a worthy successor to Resident Evil 4's chainsaw-weilding Dr. Salvador too.

#1: Aliens: Colonial Marines

With no new Alien sequels in the foreseeable future, Aliens: Colonial Marines is a welcome return to the Alien saga for fans that picks up shortly after where Alien 3 left off. In the game, you'll control a squad of colonial marines who have been ordered to rescue several military personnel, one of which is Ellen Ripley, blowing away any xenomorphs that get in your way. It almost makes up for two wretched AVP movies in a row.

Be sure to also check out OMGHorror's related feature article: 19 Upcoming Horror Movies We're Dying to See which lists the most-highly anticipated new horror films of 2008 and beyond.

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Now I'm totally dying to get my hands on #20, #19, #17, #15, #11, #9, #8, #6 (and of course) #5, #4, #3, #2, #1!!!!!!!! Shit lol. But obviously I can't, because I'm cash-strapped at the mo.. Haha. And I don't usually like to spend money on video games.. Unless it's really really worth it (which I'm sure #3, #2, #1 are!! but still!)

So yea ok anyways then I started searching for Free Horror Games hahaha. A bit impossible to find decent horror games for FREE but worth a shot.. I found this page which is like really cheesy and full of those mini games for a cheap thrill.. Some good games I guess, like Desolation 2.. (which I just spent the last half hour playing lol shit... midterm midterm!! haha) Oh have I mentioned I played Dark Cut the other day? It's not as gory as it describes itself to be lol but the annoying thing is how pinpoint-accurate you have to be while carrying out the procedures. Then I found THIS page, which directed me to Penumbra, a previously free game that isn't free anymore =( And it's sad coz the game looks impressive! Grr

I also found some other links but I gave up because it really is too much of a trouble to find good games to play online unless they're MMORPG like Granado Espada, or ok fine WARCRAFT or that Hammerhead thingy game that Adam plays all the time. I have limited interest for games like these though ok i played GE for a very very short while. And some other games which I can't remember anymore. Haha the most hilarious game I've played has to be Utopia.

It's really funny coz I started playing that because my whole family (maternal side) started playing it.. So we all had various Utopia accounts.. Then exams came around and blah blah blah we all stopped playing it slowly, save for a few of us who'd play it on the side.. So one day in Buffalo I set up a new Utopia account on WoL server.. Tempted to start Battlefields but that server was gone hahaha so anyways. (At this point I must mention that I was never any good at Utopia. In fact, it's a running joke now with my cousins that everytime they sign into one of their accounts at a gathering, they'll say to me, "I bet you've never seen such a high networth right Cher?" lol)

So anyway yea I set up an account and meddled here and there w/o downloading Utopia Angel and stuff like that which is essential for anyone who's serious about Utopia. I was just treating it as a simple RPG.. Even maybe something like MUDding haha. Which I see now was a huge mistake. So anyways, I got to know some people in my kingdom better blah blah blah.. Then midterms came around and I had to study and I basically got really busy and had no time to upkeep my account for like, 3 days? I signed in again and got a message from my monarch saying that I wasn't growing enough and they had to kill me off the kd. I was like WTF!?!?! This isn't fair! Then so I was complaining on the forum. One of the guys I'd made friends with was kinda sticking up for me. He added me on msn and we were just talking and he was like giving me advice and shit..

2 days later I signed in and my NW had plummetted to new lows, my lands had been pillaged and basically I was dying. I was in no shape to rebuild and all. So i was feeling totally helpless and taken advantage of and ANGRY! Haha so I immediately spoke to my cousins (who are AWESOME at utopia btw.) and basically wanted them to take revenge for me and kill off this whole KD. My cousins, who had been monarchs of top-ranking kds in utopia, LAUGHED IN MY FACE. Lol. Thanks ah. They were like "Why did you start playing again? Do you have a lot of time there in the states or something?" lol

Anyways. That was a bit of a rant I needed to get out of my system. What was I talking about? Oh yea free horror games lol. So anyway yea point of the whole entry is 1) IF ANYONE HAS THE INSTALLER FOR ANY GOOD HORROR GAME, PASS IT ALONG =) Lol. I'll be very happy hehe. I'm not too good at FPS games but I'll try! Lol. Oh hopefully your games are for PC because I can't use my brother's Xbox.. Yea you know the problem.

2) So I was totally and completely distracted from schoolwork by just one simple article. GAWD the Internet really draws me in sometimes. You know what's worse? I was reading this other article too and now I just wanna go out and watch some horror movies...

FEATURE: 19 Upcoming Horror Movies We're Dying to See!
March 28, 2008 11:19 AM

#19: Rogue
Release Date: TBA
Aussie writer/director Gregg McLean follows up his incendiary feature length debut Wolf Creek with Rogue; a movie that highlights the travails of American journalists touring the Australian outback. Once there, they encounter man eating crocodile out for fresh feast; picking off the tourists one by one from a stranded muddy oasis. If this packs half the punch of Wolf Creek, this could be a bonafide '08 sleeper. The movie stars Radha Mitchell, Michael Vartan, John Jarratt (Wolf Creek's villain) and Robert Taylor (of Matrix fame). A tentative U.S. release date is un-slated at the moment.

#18: The Box
Release Date: TBA 2008
After Richard Kelly's sublime, cryptically dark cult debut Donnie Darko, it took him seven or so odd years to release his sophomore effort Southland Tales, a widely lambasted debacle of a film that resonated with neither audiences nor critics. It appears his plans as auteur have been relegated to work for hire, now Kelly opens The Box; about a couple who mysteriously receives a small wooden box on their doorstep. Opening the box rewards with the couple with instant wealth; yet little do they know that every time the box is opened, a complete and total strange is killed. The movie features James Marsden, Cameron Diaz and Frank Langella, based on the storied urban legend by Richard Matheson. The movie is in post-production and will be released some time in 2008.

#17: Hellboy II: The Golden Army
Release Date: July 11, 2008.
The Golden Army - Though not technically a horror film proper, Guillermo Del Toro returns with his kick ass off beat comic book character with Ron Perlman reprising the titular role. Not only directing, Del Toro's new script will focus on Hellboy and his team's attempt to save planet Earth from rebellious creatures out to conquer the world, stopping at nothing short of all out intergalactic war. On board this time are the familiar faces of John Hurt, Selma Blair, Doug Jones, Brian Steele and Jeffery Tambor, among others.

(RELEASED ALREADY, I'VE WATCHED IT. GOOD =))

#16: Cell
Release Date: TBA
Horror icon Stephen King lends his conception of a zombie filled technological future run amok in Eli Roth's new film Cell. The writer/director of Cabin Fever, the highly successful Hostel and Hostel Part II, now tries his hand at adapting perhaps the most notorious of difficult material in the genre; a King novel. The film revolves around a deadly pulse that radiates through the every cell phone; causing each user to degenerate into flesh hungry fiends out to eviscerate all who stand in there way. The film is currently in pre-production and is scheduled to hit theaters some time in 2009.

#15: Teeth
Release Date: May 6, 2008 (video)
Well, what can we say about Teeth? Perhaps the best premise combining horror with humor in the most unique way since, I don't know, Re-Animator? Evil Dead 2 maybe! Writer/director Mitchell Lichtenstein (son of Pop Art pioneer Roy Lichtenstein) takes his first bite out of filmmaking with Teeth; a picture about a young girl who develops deadly fangs along the inside walls of her gender region. She lures horny teenage boys like flies to a trap, offering them something intimate they'll never forget. I mean, I've heard of a girl being a dog, but canines in her crack? DAMN!! The flick stars Jess Weixler, John Hensley, Josh Pais, Hale Appleman, and Ashley Springer. Teeth starts with a limited release in May 2008, hoping for wider distribution in the months to come.

#14: Machete
Release Date: TBA
Robert Rodriguez's send up to action exploitation can never be more evident than his soon to be straight to video release of Machete. The film stars Danny Trejo as a one time Mexican Federale, hired and ultimately set up to assassinate a corrupt senator. As Machete survives an onslaught of initial attacks, he sets out to exact revenge on those conspiring to ensure his demise. Though not your typical horror fare, this will certainly have plenty of blood shed, campy humor, nudity, even cooler 70's low budget production values, and an awesome throw back soundtrack. Fun, if nothing else! No release date has been set. Note: below is the faux trailer of Machete from the film Grindhouse and not the official trailer for the planned full length film.

#13: Mirrors
Release Date: August 15, 2008
Alexandre Aja seems to be cornering the horror remake market. After his 2006 rendition of The Hills Have Eyes Aja is now focusing his efforts on the remake of perhaps the most original Asian (South Korea) horror flick to come out in many a moon, Into the Mirror. The film, about a mall security guard who notices strange happenings in a department store, focuses on one man's tireless determination to solve mysterious murders linked with the mirrors that align the store. Aja has locked familiar American talent such as Kiefer Southerland, Amy Smart, Paula Patton, as well as British imports John Shrapnel and Jason Femyng.

#12: The Ruins
Release Date: April 4, 2008
Director Carter Smith tackles his first horror effort with The Ruins; a film about a group of young twenty something friends whose rural Mexican vacation gets side swiped upon the decision to explore an archeological dig in the heart of the jungle. Inside the ruins, an ancient evil presence festers and threatens to overtake every last newcomer; a premise that pits the survivors against each other as much as against the root of the evil (ala The Thing). The Ruins features Jonathon Tucker, Jenna Malone, Shawn Ashmore, Laura Ramsey and Joe Anderson.

#11: Giallo
Release Date: TBA 2008
Argento returns to his roots with Giallo, a slasher flick cut from the same cloth as Tenebrae, Deep Red and Opera. This time out, we have an American stewardess in Milan, who must cooperate with an Italian detective to reclaim her abducted sister from a deadly assailant simply known as "Yellow." In addition to literally translating in Italian as "Yellow," the word Giallo has come to represent a film genre unto itself; one featuring elaborate, bloodletting death scenes accompanied with strange musical tones and ambient sounds (Argento and Bava being the fathers). Along with daughter Asia Argento, Ray Liotta and Elsa Pataky will also star in Dario's latest dance with the dead. Giallo is in pre-production and has a provisional 2008 release date.

#10: The Midnight Meat Train
Release Date: May 16, 2008
From the demented mind of horror veteran Clive Barker, comes the twisted story of The Midnight Meat Train, where a photographer in the Big Apple is hell bent on tracking down and ending the life of a rampant serial killer. This particular yarn weaves horror with mystery as well as elements of the crime thriller; all helmed by Japanese director Ryuhei Kitamura, who's dipped into this sort of territory with prior works such as Alive, Sky High (not the Kurt Russell piece) and Versus. The script is adapted by up and coming horror enthusiast Jeff Buhler, who currently has his own feature length horror debut in post-production called Insanitarium, which also might be worth keeping eyes on. The film stars Vinnie Jones, Bradley Cooper and Brooke Shields.

#9: Silent Night, Deadly Night
Release Date: TBA
Easily one of the most inspired, yet polemical slasher flicks ever to be sprung into the mainstream; Alexandre Aja is back at rehashing good ideas with his remake of Silent Night, Deadly Night. The movie focuses on a maniacal psycho killer who roams the streets of a small town decked in a Santa Clause outfit, viciously laying to waste all who cross his path; gorily disposing all he deems naughty, on Christmas Eve no less. The original '84 version was met with rabid criticism and protest, and although Aja can't seem to conjure an original idea for himself, he does seem to have a flare for directing this kind of material. No actors are on board yet, and a release date is nowhere in sight.

#8: Mother of Tears
Release Date: June 6, 2008
The undisputed maestro of Italian punk splatter Dario Argento is back at work, adding to his impressive oeuvre with the conclusion of the "Three Mothers" trilogy; the final installment being Mother of Tears. The film is set in Rome, where an ancient urn discovered in a cemetery becomes pierced, unleashing an evil spirit that plagues the city with murder, rape, looting; all around violent chaos. The fate of the city is left in the hands of a young art student, who with her own supernatural ability; has finally met her ultimate match. The film stars Asia Argento, Dario Nicolodi, Udo Kier, and Christian Solimeno; and a limited NC-17 theatrical release is in negotiation.

#7: 25/8
Release Date: TBA 2009
With recent artistic departures in films like Red Eye, and Paris, I Love You, Wes Craven is back with slasher vengeance in his newest project 25/8. Like many of the highly esteemed directors listed above, we all hope that one last savage entry into the genre will debunk any notion of these men slipping into effete categorization of washed up old hacks. In 25/8, a homicidal psychopath returns to his home town to stalk a handful of children who share the same birthday as the day he was left for dead. Not only directing, Craven penned his own script, and since the film is merely in pre-production without a cast, a 2009 release is looking more and more imminent.

#6: Wizard of Gore
Release Date: TBA
Herschell Gordon Lewis' original vision was so offbeat and underground that it took two years after the film was wrapped to find distribution. Almost four decades later, director Jeremy Kasten, who's headed such horror fare as All Souls Day and The Thirst, takes Allen Kahn's story updated by Zach Chassler, and attempts to put his own stamp on it. The flick is centered on a sadistic magician who finds pleasure in maiming, torturing and brutally killing his on stage volunteers. Or so it would seem! The movie will feature Crispin Glover, Bijou Philips, Brad Dourif, Kip Pardue and Jeffrey Combs. A release date has not been ascertained as of yet.

#5: From a Buick 8
Release Date: TBA 2009
Speaking of the aforementioned Tobe Hooper, the man responsible for genre greats like Eaten Alive, Texas Chainsaw Massacre and The Funhouse; also has the pick back in hand, ready to carve another master work in the Stephen King adaptation of From a Buick 8. The film highlights a strange car looking vessel, a Buick 8; that serves as a portal into another dark dimension for human beings to experience. Those who have read the book know this bears no resemblance to King's other automotive horror story, Christine. The film is currently in pre-production and is chalked for an unknown 2009 release.

#4: Stuck / House of Re-Animator
Release Date: May 30, 2008 (Stuck); TBA (House of Re-Animator)
Stuart Gordon, chiefly known for his comic horror gem Re-Animator, has immersed himself in the horror world once again, steadfast at work with the release of his next two features. The first, Stuck, is a blood-splattered horror/thriller dealing with the intricacies of a hit and run car accident, and the fate of being "stuck" in the wrong place at the wrong time. The flick stars Mena Suvari and Stephen Rea with a hopeful limited release to start May 30, 2008. Not to be outdone however, Gordon goes back to the well with the announcement of House of Re-Animator, delivering Jeffrey Combs' iconic role of Herbert West into the White House for some presidential comic gore. Along with Combs, George Wendt and William H. Macy are attached to star. No release date is set.

#3: L.A. Gothic
Release Date: TBA 2008
Along with colleagues like Argento, Hooper and Gordon, working on the Showtime series "Masters of Horror," has seemed to pump new, invigorated blood into horror legend John Carpenter. With a slew of misses (albeit at times fun) like Ghosts of Mars and Vampires, Carpenter now devotes his time and effort to L.A. Gothic; a quintet of horror stories surrounding an ex-Priest's fervent attempt to save his teenage daughter from the unnecessary evils of the Los Angeles underworld. With a hopeful 2008 release, so far only Brent Gorcie is rumored to play a part.

#2: Frankenstein
Release Date: TBA
Although Guillermo del Toro has been relatively silent about his plans to direct his own version of Mary Shelly's Frankenstein, we're still extremely excited the acclaimed director is even considering to provide his own take on the classic story. Del Toro, who is known for directing Pan's Labyrinth, Hellboy, and other films, has said that he believes that he'll be able to "tell the myth in a different way." Prior Del Toro fare in the horror world include Mimic and the must see Cronos.

#1: Drag Me to Hell
Release Date: TBA
Before becoming an A-list director behind behemoth blockbusters like the Spiderman franchise, Sam Raimi was deeply steeped in the horror genre. He pushed the envelope with The Evil Dead series, combining technical ingenuity with a blend of horrific and humorous story elements. Not only that, but he basically apotheosized the character of Ash, the immortal Bruce Campbell camp cult hero. And now, for the first time since '92, he returns to the genre with Drag Me to Hell, about a supernatural curse gone awry, permeating a human host. So far, Justin Long is in line to star, an unsettled 2009 release date to be seen.

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Yea I wanna watch most of them. Have watched Hellboy II already. Good haha. It isn't a horror flick but it'll do. But oh when it comes to Horror, it has to be said that this is one realm where Asians do it better than Westerners. You CANNOT BEAT ASIAN HORROR FLICKS. Hands-down Asian horror is the best. Maybe because I'm Asian and I feel more for Asian supernatural culture, being immersed in it more of the time.

Btw have you guys watched Incredible Tales?? Omg it's one show that's locally produced that I really really love=) haha.

OK ENOUGH WITH MY HORROR OBSSESSION. I have no idea why I'm so obssessed with all things horror. Maybe coz I was born on/near Halloween. hehe. NOOOO IDEAA.

(after re-reading this post: OMG I'M SUCH A GEEK =( )

Aye it's been a really long entry. I'll end it for now. Update another time! Heh. Ciaoooo

2009-02-21T08:15:00.000-08:00

long time no blog! lol. sorry to like all of my 7 readers.

this song's going around in my head!!

原谅我当天不懂得珍惜
只知任性坏事情...
唯愿你此刻可于虚空中将心聆听
将来若真的再有个约会会完成
真的会再有这样深情
我以天为证跟你带领
我以天为证请你带领

It's from the canto show My Date With A Vampire II! It's amazing haha. Also, been singing Sarang in gayo from Goong: Princess Hours haha. That's one nice song man. Love it!

So i said I'd blog about stuff that's been happening.. Well, i got a job at the Singapore Zoo. Spent my Valentine's day there working.. It was an on the job evaluation thing to assess if they wanted me. It was really really really really FUN! I was placed at the Entrance where I basically tore up the tickets of people entering the zoo. I made a lot of mistakes when tearing the tickets (like tearing off the wrong part of the ticket altogether or forgetting to record the different types of tickets lol) but i think my energy more than made up for it. I was really like, enthusiastically greeting people as they entered.. "Hi! Welcome to the Singapore Zoo=) " and with my typical big big smile* haha.

Then I was placed on exit duty as well, which was ALSO fun =) At least, the earlier parts, when I gave out really cool Zoo bookmarks to little kids (OMG SO MANY AND ALL SO ADORABLE) and said bye to people leaving, giving re-entry stamps to people who needed to enter again.. At exit duty I had to keep saying "Thanks for visiting the Zoo, hope to see you again" and other variations..

Then as it was Valentine's Day, there were like 5678920319284761 couples turning up with roses and cheesy couple shirts and all. I thought I would be bitter about it but surprisingly I was like really happy. Everytime I let a couple in I'd be like "Have a nice Valentine's day!" and to my surprise I really meant it! I think it's sweet that couples would wanna come to the Zoo for Valentine's. Funny thing was when I wished them a Happy Valentine's, usually the guy would respond "Thanks, you too" and I'd be thinking "Do I look like I'm having a Happy Valentine's??" lol. But yea it was uber fun. We also did maintenance checks of the entrance area, surveys of visitors and lunch was provided. Mingling with the colleagues was great too and I really just loved seeing all the visitors.

In the end, however, it was a really exhausting day. I smiled till my cheek muscles ached and the 7hours of standing really hurt my back. Plus, after I was done with the day I walked all the way out to the main road from inside the zoo (that's a freaking long walk, like from SIM to Beauty World or something like that) to meet my dad.

My nametag=)

Earlier in the day I was told that I'd be observed by people and cameras and that there would be 'spies' watching my progress so that they could evaluate my behavior and suitability. I kinda felt as if I was on display for awhile and it sort of explained why random people kept coming up to talk to me. But I love that the atmosphere was really friendly. All of us who were working for the Zoo would always smile at each other as we walked past and some even stopped for a friendly chat. It was really awesome.

When it came to the end of the day (I'd done like 2 hours of exit duty and it was awfully tiring, having to smile and say "Thanks for coming to the zoo, have a great evening, have a nice day, see you again, blah blah blah" ) I was called to the corporate office for a debrief. Now I must say that I'd actually done some research before going for the first interview and I already knew that if I was shortlisted I'd have to go through the onthejob assessment thing, because I read the blog of this other girl who had done it. So on that girl's blog, she was told that they would contact her within a week from her onjobassessment to let her know if she got the job. She also mentioned that she had gotten some positive feedback so she felt she'd get the job and all.

So bearing all this in mind, I went to the debrief session thinking that if I'd done well I could expect a call in the next week. So I went to the meeting room, and the lady in charge was all like "What did you learn from this" and "Would you be keen on taking up this job" etc. I gave the appropriate responses, and said that yea I could see myself doing this (but I didn't see it as like a confirmation of me taking the job coz i thought I'd have a bit of leeway in that one week to consider whether or not i'd like it)..

Apparently my responses and performance that day were like really good coz she handed me a file that she'd brought in with her and inside it was the SOP for staff, and other material that I'd needed. She said that there'd been positive feedback from the people I worked with, people who were observing and also what she saw for herself.. I was all like o.0 ... She started talking about stuff like when I could make it and all. Then she was like, "Any other questions?" I kinda stared at her and went "Uh, ok so uh, is this all OFFICIAL?" haha and she was like "yes"

So my verdict for my performance that day: 4 words - Hired on the spot. Pretty good I guess. I'm semi-looking forward to work. Haha. So you guys can come visit me at the Zoo anytime =) Actually, not anytime. Give me some warning haha.

Couldn't resist taking a picture of my uniform for the day haha. Was told to come down in plain white polo tee and dark jeans with covered sports shoes.. And you can see the handy little pouch we were given. It's awesome lol.

Had to hide out in the toilet to take these pictures lol. The only time you're allowed to check/use your phones.

So yup. After that went for family dinner to send-off cousin (Biao Jie) who was going back to Canada.. She's prolly gonna marry her Japanese boyfriend soon so we'll probably see her soon enough. Took lots of pictures with the cousins, had a lot of fun =) It was a fun, enriching Valentine's Day i guess, haha.

My handsome boyfriend for the night lol. I think I did pretty well for myself, despite looking so hideous. LOL. I bagged the best looking guy in the restaurant! haha. sadly he's like, 5 years younger than me and related by blood. LOL

Ding and yang look really great here =)

Biao jie, take care and be safe=) <3

BEN!!! I'd really wanted to go for your talk thing but yea now you know what I was busy with=( Next time ok! =) haha

ok now for explanation of the *. So I really don't think I have that nice a smile, seeing as I have the horrible teeth and all, but apparently a lot of people think I have a "great smile" which kinda puzzles me haha. I was doing a presentation kinda thing in class for our Public Speaking course, and I was really nervous coz I didn't prepare well and didn't really know what to say. So being as nervous as I was, I smiled constantly at the audience in a semi-idiotic way. Then because everyone was supposed to evaluate everyone and hand their comments to the person who spoke, I had a chance to see what everyone thought and the most common comment was "Great smile" etc. Of course, a lot of people said I was "confident" which means the smiling effectively distracted them from my nervousness haha. Joce told me after that that the only thing that gave my nerves away was how my neck area was turning progressively redder as I spoke. HAHAHA. Amazing.

Apart from all that, I've been busy I guess. School and stuff. Oh oh! Val and I made a show! Oh man, another long story, haha. I'll blog about it another time. For now, just head on over to http://www.ustream.tv/channel/untitled-for-now to have some good, almost clean fun! =)

Till the next time, ciao guys and love!

hmmm.. it's looking good, looking good =)

2009-02-08T00:23:00.000-08:00

hmm i'm in a really weird mood now. i'm feeling the serious urge to write some prose but can't think of a premise. bah. so here I am writing a blog entry instead. haha.

been busy lately i guess. school and stuff. went to K at last!! Met with abby for a celebration sorta thing of our grades.. my Dean's list thing (a bit overrated actually) and her 4.0 GPA for last sem... I asked Joce along coz I was dying to K and she and I both wanted to K =) All in all it was fun =D

Hmm then i guess much of the rest of the time was school. Was running myself to exhaustion i guess. Kinda died by the time Friday came along. I'm just so tired lately, so lazy to go anywhere. I don't have the mood for anything. I know why though, I'm just not gonna share it here. Haha.

I realize I'm starting to bottle things up and I know it's unhealthy but I'm starting to feel that I shouldn't bother my friends again. They're busy, have their own problems, and plus, my problems are boring. So anyways I think this bottling up thing is not too good for my emotional health because I'm getting extremely irritable. I get annoyed by the slightest things now. Like right now i'm really annoyed coz this boy in my estate keeps singing really annoyingly and loudly... And my parents keep making way too much noise and my dad keeps screaming for me to go downstairs to do stupid stuff like set up the karaoke system for him or watch some freakish old-school movie which i have NEGATIVE interest in. That's right, NEGATIVE interest. Not only do I have zero interest in it, I HATE IT.

Gah. Like I said, i'm easily annoyed. One little spark that lit up my past week though, was that my final package from Buffalo finally arrived! And I feel the timing couldn't have been more right because I was feeling at my lowest, walking home from the bus stop and angsting as is usual for me nowadays.. I skulked into my room and noticed a huge box in front of my bed and my heart took a slow but happy leap.. And I was happy for the next 2 hours or so =) I'm really really glad coz all my books and scrapbooking stuff and all are here!

So nowadays I spend my free time lolling around, reading my books. At last. It's a kind of bliss for me. Well you know, a small kind of bliss in the midst of all the angsting. haha.

Busy week ahead. Interviews and school and meeting friends. Yea. I really wish I could bury myself in work. Alright. Bye guys~

2009-02-05T03:38:00.000-08:00

So my horoscope forecast thing for February is out and some stuff has been quite accurate again..! Haha last month's was KINDA accurate but majorly inaccurate for some things. So it really is all subjective la heh.

Scorpio (October 23 - November 21)

Your February Horoscope by Susan Miller

Your home will be a major focus in February. If you are up to making changes, whether large or small, you'll be thrilled with the results. The solar eclipse that occurred last month on January 26 brought your home, property, and family-related plans to front and center of your life quite rapidly, so you may have already started to draw up blueprints.

As you enter February, you may begin to see important opportunities to make your lifestyle closer to the way you want it to be. Last month Mercury was in weak, retrograde motion, but happily, you can make solid plans now that Mercury will move ahead February 1.

Mars, your ruling planet, will arrive in the same area of home and property on February 4, marking Mars' first visit in two years. Once there, the Red Planet will join the Sun, Neptune, and Jupiter, all awaiting this energetic planet's arrival. This is A LOT of planetary energy to have at your disposal, all so beneficial, too!

If you would like to move, through leasing or buying a new space, you have one of your best opportunities in over a decade to do so. Good fortune Jupiter is now in your house of home for the first time since 1997 and will see to it that you find a spacious, sunny dwelling that should offer a view and possibly even big closets. Don't settle for anything less than the best of what you want!

You need not move to enjoy Jupiter's gracious luck. It may be as simple as clearing out closets, making repairs, adding a fresh coat of paint, and perhaps adding a new piece of furniture. Taken in the aggregate, these small changes would make a big difference. (The new piece of furniture you buy would not have to be costly. It may be a delicious find you spot on eBay or at a flea market. Fortunate Jupiter will bring you bargains now, so keep your eyes open.)

If you buy or lease, you may pay more than you had planned to, only because the space you find will be so valuable. Indeed, what you find may be too good to pass up! The value will certainly be obvious.

If you are trying to save your house from having it reclaimed by the bank, put on your thinking cap and try a host of solutions. Even though you find yourself in a tight spot, you will have massive cosmic support now, with so many friendly planets filling your home sector. Among them is Jupiter, not only the planet of good fortune, but also of miracles, so leave no stone unturned, dear Scorpio.

You may be deliberating with the idea of moving in with a lover, but if so, you might want to wait a bit longer to decide if that would be a good idea. Neptune has you very excited and happy, but you could be sweeping a tad too enthusiastically into the sea of love. Give this decision a little more time, say, to the end of July or early August.

A more spacious housing situation is certainly indicated. One Scorpio recently found her apartment doubled in size when her ex moved out - she got the place, and a divine place it was to be! Jupiter works in magical ways, wouldn't you say? You may also discover that your building is converting to condo, allowing you to buy, when you assumed that would never be possible.

Neptune will move very close to the Sun at this time, so be very careful about checking up on your housing's water supply. If you are moving into a new space you are buying, ask questions of the previous tenant, the neighbors, and the owner about water quality, possible flooding, and other related situations involving water, ice, mold, and so forth. Ask an engineer for a full report on the cleanliness of the water and whether any water damage has posed a problem in the past.

Just in case, with Neptune so active, be sure to have an insurance policy that will guard you against floods and any other possible water-related problems. I am being very cautious, that is all, so don't be anxious, dear Scorpio.

You may also want to check with an electrician too, to be sure your new upgraded space's circuitry will be support many high tech items like flat screen TVs, new kitchen appliances, computers, and other such electronics. If your building was built several decades ago, you will want to make sure your sockets can handle the additional electrical demand you will place on them.

Exceptional good news about home will come on February 24 when Mercury and Jupiter align. It'll be an ideal day to sign papers.

Your home life seems to be very connected to what is going on in your career, and you will see this to be true at the month's major moment, the lunar eclipse, February 9, operative plus or minus one week. You may need to relocate to accept your new post or it may be that your new job will allow you to upgrade your standard of living.

Watch for exciting career developments to surface on February 9 or in the days surrounding this date. If you have been interviewing for a new job, but have been unable to find out what is being discussed and decided behind the scenes, you will find out at this time for sure. If you are self-employed, you will be able to net a top new client, one that raises your status in the industry quite a bit.

Neptune will be active again, so be sure you understand the parameters of the job and what will be expected of you - ask many specific questions. Neptune can crate foggy situations, so there is some danger that you and your employer / client may be of two minds about that.

The job you will be discussing may go in one of two directions. The first would center you in the entertainment or fashion industry, with special emphasis on designers, music, celebrities, and hot new trends. The second way it may go is toward any and all industries that cater to children, including education, clothing, toys, books, children's TV programming, or is in some way connected to teaching.

Eclipses are famous for creating rapidly moving events, and bringing with them some urgency to make a decision quickly. You will go through the eclipse period far calmer if you don't overcrowd your schedule near February 9.

Many meetings and phone calls will come up on and near this date, and you'll need to have some elasticity in your schedule to respond to career offers and events as they rapidly unfold. Even if you currently hold the top position in your organization, you can always ascend to a spot even higher, dear Scorpio, a fact you will discover now. Some Scorpios will not hear of a new job on this date, but rather will have a February 9 start date that was accepted some time ago, with equally fine results.

Often eclipses ask us to "eclipse out" of a present job, so the decision to move to your new position, whether within your present firm or to a new company, may be quite sudden. Should you lose a job (very unlikely, but if you do), you will later thank your company for freeing you to find something better.

In that case, assertively begin your job search without delay, and by midyear you will be on the cusp of a new, better position. The end of 2009 will bring you plenty of professional accolades, so it seems clear you will be able to turn things to your advantage. As you see, no matter what happens, there is no need to feel stressed out. You are going to be fine.

After all these serious home and career decisions on the docket, you will need a little fun. The universe understands and will bring you a number of enchanting evenings.

First, Valentine's Day will see the moon in Scorpio, bringing to fullness all your most romantic desires and dreams for a perfect evening out with the one you love. Your sign is considered one of the most true blue, passionate, and also the most private of any of the signs. On this night, if you have a partner, suggest a way to best spend the evening. It is evident that your partner adores you and will want to please you.

If you have no special partner, you may meet your one true love sooner than you ever expected. The new moon on February 24 will fall in your romance sector and may bring a surprise meeting with someone quite intriguing. This same new moon will have you soon growing closer to your partner if you are attached.

Thanks to collaboration between Mercury and Jupiter on the very same day of the new moon, February 24, you may find this day particularly tender, ideal for a meeting of the mind and heart with the one you love.

A discussion about a present or soon-hoped-for pregnancy (or plans for a child you have now) may come up in February's last week. If you are just starting your family, may be worried about how you'd handle motherhood and a new job at the same time, but it simply comes down to having lots of love and passion as well as a penchant for organization, all elements you were born with in abundance.

Not interested in having a child? You won't lose out - this same trend will encourage your creativity on a very large scale. If you have a new position, it will give you plenty of room to show off your imagination. If you don't know about your new position yet (there is some indication some Scorpios may not know until early August), then your artistic expressions and sense of style will put you ahead of the pack and in line for that top job soon.

One of your happiest two days of the month for seeing gratifying progress on a personal matter dear to you will be February 16-17. That's when Mars, your ruler, will conjoin Jupiter, the planet of happiness and good fortune, a rare and sparkling aspect. This meeting of Mars and Jupiter won't occur again until spring 2011, so enjoy the results while you have it! Home, family, and real estate matters glow, as will conditions involving a project on the job. In fact, your pockets may brim with more cash as a result of what happens on this glorious set of days.

It's a powerful month and one that will point you in a whole new direction, whether at home, at work, or in your love life - but more likely at least two of the three, if not all!

Summary

All sorts of major stirrings appear to be bubbling up in your life these days. Last month you had a solar eclipse in Aquarius on January 26, and with a bevy of planets also filling your home sector during most of February, you may be getting ready to move or change the way your home looks and feels. If so, your timing couldn't be better. Last month, Jupiter, the giver of gifts and luck, entered your home sector, making 2009 the best year in a decade to change spaces.

While all of 2009 will be special for improving your living situation, February will be your best month of all, for you will have the support of so many other planets in Aquarius. If you need to do something difficult, such as to move across country, do a complete renovation, buy a house, or save your house from foreclosure, this would be the month to have talks, make applications, or draw up concrete plans, as the case may be. Realize that you don't have to actually finish things, but it surely would be the right month to start.

You may be changing your living arrangements because of a change that's brewing in your career. The full moon lunar eclipse may seal things on February 9, plus or minus one week. It appears one job will end and a new one will begin. I could be wrong, but it looks like you'll be leaving one career situation for another. These two separate situations may dovetail at the same time, but if they don't, don't worry - your chart shows plenty of evidence you are going up, up, up the ladder of success in life.

One of your happiest days of the month will be February 17, when Jupiter will align with Mars in your house of home. This day is worthy of five stars, so find something, large or small, to do to improve your home situation on that day. Order a piece of furniture, close on a house, rent a new apartment, or buy a flat screen TV. (Digital and electronic items are VERY favored on this day.)

Mercury is no longer retrograde as of February 1, so from February 4 onward (leaving a little room from the day Mercury turns direct) you can make all the big decisions you like.

When it comes to romance, Valentine's Day, February 14, should be really special this year - the moon will be in Scorpio, emphasizing your desires and dreams. If you are attached or married, chose a very private place to celebrate your love for each other.

If you are thinking of moving in with your sweetheart, I would like you to delay that decision for awhile because Neptune will be so very active. This suggests that you may not be thinking clearly. More facts will come into play, so take it slow. You can always decide to do so later. You are in the process of a vast life change, all of it exciting, so why rush things? You are the prize, dear Scorpio!

No special love? The new moon on February 24 will be your fairy godmother in helping you find your best opportunity in ages to meet new people. Who cares if Valentine's Day comes late as long as it arrives? Be out and about, dear Scorpio! If you are married and hope for a baby, this new moon would be one of the best to begin trying. Do so in the days that follow, as you will have 2-3 weeks.

Dates to note:

Your home, property, or the welfare of a parent will be your first priority in the first half of February. You can get so much done!

A career offer or thrilling development on the professional front will have your full attention: February 9 plus or minus four days.

Some eclipses assert their messages one month to the day later, plus or minus four days, so stay alert if you learn nothing now.) You may need to relocate to take full advantage of the job.

Married or single, dating or not, your most romantic evenings: February 14 -15 and after the new moon February 24-28. Other romantic dates include (as runner ups) February 6 and 20, but clearly the others have the edge.

A very lucky set of days for you: February 16-17. Home, real estate, family, job progress, and money all shine.

A heartfelt exchange with a romantic interest could touch you: February 24, a four-star night.

Home, property, and family-related changes are all made in heaven in early to mid-February. Jupiter will see to it that you find a dream living situation or bargain piece of furniture you have always wanted.

The thing about Feb9 is very very true. I have an interview for a job I really want on that day and so I hope it all goes well! =)

As for everything else, we'll see. Ok blog later. Ciao all~ I'm uber tired.

2009-02-02T04:45:00.001-08:00

gah it's February already! well. i've slacked off the entire previous week, which i think is really great. I'm feeling so happy and rested. it's good. been "addicted to your laptop", as my mom says.. I think dealing with my computer is so much better than dealing with humans because when your computer disappoints you it usually is only a technical glitch. when people disappoint you, it hurts in your heart, and that's the worst kind of hurt..

was watching Ghost Whisperer today.. Stopped watching coz I heard they killed off Melinda's husband Jim and I didn't wanna see that happen.. But I saw an ad on tv today and apparently they brought back the actor as someone new, perhaps a potential love interest and I just wanna see how that works out. Heh. So yea. Ghost Whisperer. It rocks!!

And while watching it, I found a totally suitable song. So here's today's Song of the Day!!

I Will Be Waiting by Kelly Sweet
When it hurts too much to pretend
And the words burn inside your head
You can't say what you really mean
It's not that easy

But if we never let each other know
Let the light shine in upon our souls
We can dream but we will never see
What life could be

Someday i'll find you
And i'll catch you
When you look my way
Someday you won't be afraid
And you'll find the words to say
They were always there anyway
And i will be waiting

When the tears are slowly melting down
Your heart's stuck on the merry-go-round
Praying you could find a sign for when
This game will end

Someday i'll find you
And i'll catch you
When you look my way
Someday you won't be afraid
And you'll find the words to say
They were always there anyway
And i will be waiting

When you lose your thoughts from a single look
When you can't remember the last breath you took
I will be waiting

When it hurts too much to pretend
And the words burn inside your head
I will be waiting
I will be waiting

Yupp.. A truly amazing song. Kelly Sweet has some other great songs too! I think I'll add em to my blog playlist heh.

School tomorrow. Bah =( Ooh ooh i made dance videos! Haha. More about that next time I guess. Alrighty CIAO.

i'll hang on, believe in you, believe in me. I will be waiting.

and i guess i'll fight for you. and we'll get there!

2009-01-30T03:56:00.000-08:00

hellooooo. long time no blog.. sorry. i've been a bit down lately. nothing much to blog about. here's a song of the day. old song but some cool lyrics nonetheless:

Promiscuous by Nelly Furtado
[N:] Am I throwin you off?
Nope
[N:] Didn’t think so

How you doin’ young lady
That feelin’ that you givin’ really drives me crazy
You don’t haveta play about the joke
I was at a loss of words first time that we spoke

Looking for a girl that’ll treat you right
You lookin’ for her in the day time with the light
You might be the type if I play my cards right
I'll find out by the end of the night

[N:] You expect me to just let you hit it
But will you still respect me if you get it

All I can do is try, gimme one chance
What’s the problem I don’t see no ring on your hand

I be the first to admit it, I’m curious about you, you seem so innocent

[N:] You wanna get in my world, get lost in it
Boy I’m tired of running, lets walk for a minute

[Chorus]
Promiscuous girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And it's you that I want

[N:] Promiscuous boy
You already know
That I’m all yours
What you waiting for?

Promiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need

[N:] Promiscuous boy
Let's get to the point
Cause we're on a roll
Are you ready?

[Verse]
[N:] Roses are red
Some diamonds are blue
Chivalry is dead
But you're still kinda cute

Hey! I can't keep my mind off you
Where you at, do you mind if I come through

[N:] I’m out of this world come with me to my planet
Get you on my level do you think that you can handle it?

They call me Thomas
last name Crown
Recognize game
I'm a lay mine's down

[N:] I'm a big girl I can handle myself
But if I get lonely I’ma need your help
Pay attention to me I don't talk for my health

I want you on my team
[N:] So does everybody else.

Baby we can keep it on the low
Let your guard down ain’t nobody gotta know
If you with it girl I know a place we can go

[N:] What kind of girl do you take me for?

[Chorus]
Don't be mad, don't get mean
[N:] Don't get mad, don't be mean

Hey! Don't be mad, don't get mean
[N:] Don't get mad, don't be mean

Wait! I don't mean no harm
I can see you with my t-shirt on

I can see you with nothing on
feeling on me before you bring that on

Bring that on
[N:] You know what I mean

Girl, I’m a freak you shouldn't say those things

I’m only trying to get inside your brain
To see if you can work me the way you say

It's okay, it's alright
I got something that you gon' like

Hey is that the truth or are you talking trash
Is your game M.V.P. like Steve Nash

[Chorus]
Promiscuous Girl
Wherever you are
I’m all alone
And its you that I want

[N:] Promiscuous Boy
I'm calling your name
But you're driving me crazy
The way you're making me wait

Promiscuous Girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want
And I got what you need

[N:] Promiscuous Boy
We're one in the same
So we don't gotta play games no more

HAHA. a very nice song to club to! can you just imagine. It's awesome. Ok so anyway, CNY was good, pictures are on facebook, go see for yourself. Made some money =) Having a week of holidays which is AWESOME. Meeting friends for cny gatherings next week.. Make your booking now!

eh. not much to say. am in weird mood. talk to you guys laterrrr~

i wanna say what she said. =(

2009-01-25T10:25:00.000-08:00

had a great reunion dinner today =) well first went to church for 430pm mass, then went to Grandma's for fantastic foooood =) hung out with cousins, then gambled with uncle, aunt, and cousins and brother. i won quite a fair bit of $$ =) heh. Then went to hang out and chat with mom, granma, cousin and auntie... Hilarious!

No pictures. Tomorrow! hehe.

Songs of the day to make up for utter lack of previously.. Heh. 2 songs today. Old songs but I suddenly felt like listening to Gwen Stefani so yea, did so. First up, a song that I wish I could sing about someone else but in the current situation i wish i never have to sing to the current person. HAHA. Dunno what I'm talking about? Never mind =) If you were meant to know, you'd already understand.

So anyways here's the song I don't want to ever have to sing ahahaha. Well not to the 'current' person but to previous persons it's fine. It's good actually. HEH.

Cool by Gwen Stefani
It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life...
Pass these things get more comfortable
Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool

We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain

Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles, and now we're hangin' out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool

-----------------

It's a really great song to sing to ex-es and stuff. =D After I get married (IF IF IF) i'll probably sing this song lots. HAHAHA.

Ok next song is slightly more relevant i guess.

4 in the Morning by Gwen Stefani
Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
& all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have

& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

(Give you everything)
(Give you all of me)

Heh yea.. Okay going to sleep now night all! Long day ahead..

how am i supposed to have faith? you're hot and you're cold and I'm so lost and confused. well not really but i don't know what to do

ah screw you i'm going to sleep

2009-01-24T12:08:00.000-08:00

past few days have been very normal... thus explains the lack of blogging! school, home school home, blah blah blah.

had cny reunion dinner with dad's side today. was alright. took many pictures!

cny reunion dinner with mom's side tomorrow. expecting lots of card games. Second aunt won't be here for cny!!! one less red packet to collect =(

camwhored a LOT today. contemplating the whole geisha look HAHA. take a peek! (WARNING: CAMWHORING OVERLOAD)

Started out normally enough..

Kinda bunned up my hair and apparently liked it lol

Yea I really liked it haha

Liked it so much i started wondering if I should cut my hair that length!!

HAHA Oh God that's a lot of camwhoring. I'm sorry guys. Haha. So anyways I do think I will use this as CNY look for day 2. Hehe.

Had a long chat with ben ytd over the phone as he was mj-ing with his army buddies. Quite funny LOL. THANKS BENNNN~ Your friends sound very funny hahahha. And you make them sound very unattractive, so I don't ever want to hang out with them HAHAHAHA.

Righto. Again, sorry for the overload of camwhoring but i REALLY LIKE THE LOOK LA.

Hehe. Tc all.. Ciao~

i think it's funny how we're both waiting and waiting.

2009-01-20T10:02:00.000-08:00

ok so today i overslept and missed mcneil's class in the morning... then went for dental at 1130am...

the verdict:
i'm uber disappointed =( turns out they don't recommend the surgery thing because it will require destroying some of my existing front-teeth and replacing them with crowns and veneers... they suggest braces... which makes me reconsider the whole 'let's-straighten-my-damn-teeth" issue because i really detest them damn braces. plus they take a fucking 2 years to get done and i don't know if i'll even be in Singapore that long. HMM.....

anyways. went to school after that to print notes and eventually decided to attend class... really annoying.. boastful lecturer.. self-obssessed... egotistical.. nothing else to say.

I got home and decided to try out the mina makeup for a bit haha. Just add some eyeliner to your lower lids lol. So here are some pics. WARNING: SERIOUS CAMWHORING TO FOLLOW. Not for the fainthearted.

Look at how they make the eyes kinda anime-ish!?
Camwhoring to follow

Ok then i clipped up my hair. Looks quite nice! haha i think la. lol

Here comes the camwhoring!

Haha. I look like i have freaking cat eyes kinda. I dunno. Anw, i quite like the look so I think i'll do that for Chinese New Year!!! Whee

I can't wait for CNY but i can definitely wait for lao1 yu2 sheng1. I really hate lao1 yu2 sheng1... It's my most hated tradition of CNY. Am i the only one who hates it? Bah.

Ok am sleepy. Talking to mich darling. Cheer up babe! Love ya.

Going to sleep now. Oh and yea... INAUGURATION DAY!!! YAY OBAMA! <3

right i'm going. ciaooooo~

i don't know if i would be able to take it if you found someone new that you really like

and i don't know if it would hurt you if i found someone new.

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

2009-01-20T08:14:00.001-08:00

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2009-01-20T08:04:00.001-08:00

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2009-01-20T08:01:00.001-08:00

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2009-01-19T05:04:00.001-08:00

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2009-01-19T04:59:00.001-08:00

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2009-01-19T04:14:00.000-08:00

slacked away today! that's a really great feeling. haha

watched one of my new purchases - "Threshold" .. An Alien kinda movie.. Not too bad but not really very scary.. Then I watched Final Destination 2 and 3 for the millionth time.. I also tried to watch a little bit of The Devil Wears Prada.. In fact I might go watch it in a bit heh. That would make it my 943456789024th time watching it lol.

Got up real early today.. Couldn't sleep last night for some reason. I was thinking too much and too hard. Haha. Drifted off into a fitful sleep.. Woke up feeling unrested. Oh wells. Wanted to go gym. Haha but then started listening to my show recordings to see which is the best to use as a demo for portfolio and got too caught up. Ended up not going to gym. BAH! Just as well.

Had a kinda epiphany yesterday on the way to the family gathering (yang's birthday! Lol) It was actually kind of a branch off of something i learnt from xyz. Her msn nick was something about her being only 50% and so I asked what it was about. Apparently her friend told her that in a relationship, each party can only do his/her 100%, which contributes to 50% of the relationship.

At that point all I thought was "true, true.." and i didn't think more of it. Later, however, some time after church and before arriving at yang's place, I was thinking about how if I put my mind to something, and am determined to see it through, things almost always work out. Like getting Lasik, going to UB, getting my dental surgery... Things that I wasn't too sure would happen but was determined enough to see through.. Granted, the last one isn't done yet but well.. It's well on its way. So I was thinking. If I were to be determined enough to make my relationship (hypothetical) work, i'm sure I would fulfill my 50%. All the relationship would need is the other party's 50% for it to be a guaranteed success. It doesn't even need to be 50%. It could be just 30% and the relationship would have an 80% chance of working out and those are pretty good odds already.

The only problem now is finding out whether or not the other party is willing to give his/her 100% (which = 50% of the relationship).. And I think this is often the most problematic part of every relationship. Sometimes, people are just too selfish to give of themselves entirely, so you end up with maybe a half-hearted effort, leading to just 25% of the relationship. However, I feel that most times, problems in relationships occur when/because neither party is aware of how much the other party is giving, or when/because one party starts to doubt the amount of effort the other party is putting in.

I'm sure I speak for a lot of people when I say this. Insecurity is often the mother of all breakups. When you can't be sure of what the other person is thinking, you start to withdraw and start giving less. Maybe you want to protect yourself, or maybe you think it isn't worth it if the other party isn't even trying. Slowly, both parties start to withdraw, start to quarrel, and that's when the relationship goes down the path of no return.

I think this theory applies not only to steady relationships. It also applies to crushes, burgeoning relationships, relationships between friends, family, colleagues, between a company and its employee, a nation and her citizens.. Though when we include institutions then it becomes very weird to personify them and say how much they are 'giving' because technically a nation has already given you its all and can't really withdraw.. It also applies to bloggers and their readers (hehehe. i'm blogging my ass off and no one is reading/commenting!!! *angry*), teachers and students, doctors and patients, so on and so forth!

Of course in each context there's always a different story but yea. If we could all give our 100%, or even just 80%, so many things would have such higher odds of getting done.

For me, of course, I just wish.. well. hmm. haha i'll say this somewhere else, some other time.

Anyways yesterday was yang's birthday party. it was fun! he had 2 little friends come over and we played with them a bit. Hung out with the cousins and had quite a lot of fun heh. Ding lost his peter petrelli hair and has good looking hair now! Oh and got a work-blazer thing from Godma.. Us ladies should run some kind of co-op. haha. Yea.

Ok i'm going to watch shanghai knights now hahahaha. See y'all soon.

like i said, I just wish I could know for sure if you were giving your 100%. I know I'll give mine. I'll try!

2009-01-17T22:59:00.000-08:00

guess it's time to blog before everything piles up again!

so i last blogged on thursday when i had a loooong dreary day. my schooldays, particularly tuesdays and thursdays, are kinda horrible coz my schedule goes like this:

0900 - 1030: COM326 Public Speaking
1500-1630: MGG150 Business and Society
1700-1830: Tuition

so yea.. and between 1030 to 1500 i have ta stay in school and stuff. Which is ok because I have time to spend having lunch with Ann =) And chatting with Joce. Hehe. I'm gonna make full use of that time and learn jap from joce! Yay. But come Tuesday I'll have to go for my dental appointment at 11am after the first class... Haha. Can't wait to hear the dentist's verdict and see what kinda work I should get.. Then it'll all be a matter of scheduling the surgeries!! Haha it's quite a done deal.. I've already spoken to my parents so i just can't wait now. Perfect smile coming up in a month or so!!! YAY.

So anyway yea, my Tuesdays and Thursdays are just draggy and dreary. On top of that, I have lecturers that I seriously detest.. The Public Speaking teacher isn't so bad. She has this cute little Southern drawl which makes me giggle every 5 mins, but she has a very strict, regimented idea of what Public Speaking is so... Not my kinda professor.

The MGG150 guy was supposed to be Bob Foo!!!! I'd wanted to have him as my prof coz he taught Chris and my Dad before and they both said he's good so I was really looking forward to it... Yarn didn't like him though.. But I'd personally met him before (when he was my dad's mentor we went to his house once or twice) and I thought he wasn't all that bad! Plus it'd be nice to have someone have taught both my dad and myself before mwahaha. Then we can have a comparison of who's the better student. HAHA. A little bit of family rivalry here. hee.

But anyway as it turned out.. They changed it to some guy whose name I shan't mention.. He's SUCH AN ANNOYING THING!!! On the first day he asked us to guess what's different about him from the other local lecturers.. Nick said that he has a different accent and he kinda said no. Then when we finally gave up after like 30mins, he said it's coz he speaks differently. -___-"" WTF. Then he showed us his NY driver's license on the visualizer and said he's the only local lecturer who has this. !!! I felt like kicking his newyorkborn ass. Then during the lesson he keeps going on and on about how things are different in America, about how small Singapore is (like he took out a copy of the Wall Street Journal Asia and read out every story from cover to cover, just to make the point that there wasn't a single story about Singapore in there).. How insignificant Singapore is, how it takes 8hours to drive from Buffalo to NYC (and saying that it's normal in the States to have to drive so far and not like Singapore where an hour's drive takes you anywhere) I'm like, I KNOW OK! WE ALL MADE THAT DRIVE/RIDE BEFORE YOU ARROGANT KNOWitALL.

After 20mins of that i was clenching my fists and holding onto stuff just so I wouldn't start screaming/hitting him. It was really annoying!!! He did the same thing during the 2nd lesson too! OMG annoying. Part of me started wondering if I was being so annoying too when I talk about the States with my friends.. If it really is annoying, friends, please let me know. I'll stop it i promise.

So yea. Rant over. Then Fridays I have just one lesson - NTR109/110 (Nutrition in Practice) at 1130am to 130pm.. The lecturer is some Indian lady with the strongest Indian accent I've ever encountered.. At least, it's the strongest I've encountered in a lecturer. Seriously when she said "Nineteen ninety nine" i almost died trying to figure out what the hell she was saying. And she was killing me with her semi-monotone and general anal-ism. ARGH.

Anyways so last Friday after a loooong draggy nutrition class (where I seriously wished I was at the WRUB General meeting instead ><) I went to meet my cousin Charmaine for a day of chats and shopping (oh and many AM alerts. hahaha)! Her sis (my cuz) Beatrice joined us with her friend Ginny/Jeanie later too. It was a great day. I'll let the pics do the talking =)

[images had their color and lighting edited courtesy of charmaine!]

^I love this picture lol

^I also love this picture! haha

^Imagine how gorgeous this picture would be if i'd gotten my teeth fixed!!!

EDWARD+TWILIGHT = Cherlynn's mad love. haha

Hehe. Yeps. Nice long day of camwhoring too. haha. Yays. Barring the stupid nutrition lesson, I had a really really happy day on Friday =D

Yesterday (Saturday) was spent slacking away at home, goodness knows i needed it. Chatted some online. Yea that was about it. Lots of fb activity tho hahaha.

Today. Slacking too! Whee. And then I'm going to church later, followed by family gathering with the maternal side. Yup. Oh yea. Charmaine's my cousin on the paternal side. Yup.

So anyways, I've been having reeeeaally weird dreams. REALLY weird dreams. Hmm.

Song for today... Aye. I have no idea coz I'm still really loving Breathless by Corinne Bailey Rae! Go listen to it if you haven't! The lyrics are right down there! (OH it just started playing on the playlist!!! YESS! haha) PS i have my blog playlist on 24/7 nowadays hehehe. I truly love it =)

What i really like about the song Breathless is mainly the melodic lines of the chorus, especially the line "There's a chemistry, energy, a synchronicity" yea. The ascending scales/motif.. Super hot. haha. The instrumentation is really great too! I like songs where the music surrounds me in a really big way... With a great bass line and drums.. Haha. Plus Corinne's voice is AMAZING. Can you say AMAZING? I love how her voice breaks at all the right places... The first "breath" in the first chorus, the "ni" in the word "synchronicity".... Sighhhh.. hehe Ok yea listen to the damn song already! =)

funny how i wanna hold on again just because of some things. haha. when i was all ready to move on too! dang.

2009-01-15T09:00:00.000-08:00

haven't posted a Song of the day for a bit, and am listening to a song on the playlist *points left* now that's really really really good so here's today(and yesterday)'s song!

Breathless by Corinne Bailey Rae
Seems like everyone else has a love just for them,
I don't mind, we have such a good time,
My best friend, but sometimes, well,
I wish we could be more than friends,
Tell me do you know?
Tell me do you know?
Oh..

I get so breathless, when you call my name,
I've often wondered, do you feel the same?
There's a chemistry, energy, a synchronicity
When we're all alone,
So don't tell me
You can't see
What I'm thinking of.

I can understand that you don't want to cross the line,
And you know i can't promise you things,
Will turn out fine,
But i have to be honest, I want you to be mine
Tell me do you know?
Tell me do you know?
Oh...

I get so breathless, when you call my name,
I've often wondered, do you feel the same?
There's a chemistry, energy, a synchronicity
When we're all alone,
So don't tell me
You can't see
Oh!

'Cause I've tried to do this right in your own time
I've been telling with my eyes, my heart's on fire,
Why don't you realise?
Tell me do you know?
Tell me do you know?
I get so breathless...

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it's an amazing song, this girl has got such a voice! and i'm loving the big band kinda feel to the song. i'm not really good at analyzing music so i'm not gonna go out on a limb and try to classify the genre of music. it's soul i guess, but anyways ahha. great song eh? =)

the hardest war to fight is with yourself. and i don't know what to want anymore.

2009-01-15T04:36:00.000-08:00

something that made me feel pretty good today..

40 Tips for a Better Life - 2009

1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day... And while you walk, smile. It is the
ultimate anti-depressant.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
3. Buy a DVR and tape your late night shows and get more sleep.
4. When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, 'My purpose
is to __________ today.'
5. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.

6. Play more games and read more books than you did in 2008.
7. Make time to practice meditation, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel
for our busy lives.
8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6.
9. Dream more while you are awake.
10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is
manufactured in plants.

11. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon,
broccoli, almonds & walnuts.
12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
13. Clear clutter from your house, your car, your desk and let new and flowing
energy into your life.
14. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, OR issues of the past, negative
thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the
positive present moment.
15. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply
part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the
lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

16.. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college
kid with a maxed out charge card.
17. Smile and laugh more. It will keep the NEGATIVE BLUES away.
18. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
22. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is
all about.
24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
25. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this
matter?'

26. Forgive everyone for everything.
27. What other people think of you is none of your business.
28.REMEMBER GOD heals everything.
29. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
30. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay
in touch.

31. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
32. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
33. The best is yet to come.
34. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
35. Do the right thing!

36. Call your family often.. (Or email them to death!!!)
37. Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements: I am
thankful for __________. Today, I accomplished _________.
38. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.
39. Enjoy the ride. Remember this is not Disney World and you certainly don't
want a fast pass. You only have one ride through life so make the most of it and
enjoy the ride.
40. Forward this to everyone you care about.

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let's ignore number 40. but anyways yea! it really is something i'm gonna try..

school was long dreary and everything it's supposed to be today. work's starting to pile up, we have a quiz next week. annoying.

people are saving my soul, so i've nothing to say. i've had 3 bad days in a row so far. am wondering when it's gonna lighten up. blah. see y'all, ppl!

2009-01-14T07:27:00.000-08:00

uploaded a playlist thing coz i really like sharing my songs haha. guess y'all should know since i keep posting Songs of the day. heh. enjoy it people!

also, i find auto-starting music players immensely annoying, so I've turned that function off. Hit "play" to hear them songs!

love and peace

not anymore.

2009-01-13T09:03:00.000-08:00

so today was the first day of school.... gah. it's over.

i have about 11 more weeks of this crap to look 'forward' to... Blech! My only comfort is that I'll be with my friends more or less everyday again and that makes me happy to no end =) Anndear, evyyy, joce, stephs, yarn, and psychotic's gang, and mz, etc!! =) happy happy. hehe. a bunch of us were gathered at the bus stop after class and just hung around chatting and I got a little bit nostalgic. I never realized that I missed taking the public bus with friends.. All going to bukit panjang area.. Hahaha =) It's quite an integral part of my Singapore life, I just clean forgot about it heh.

When I go back to the states, I'm gonna kinda miss that I guess.

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Ok so yesterday was great. Met up with nic and steph haha funny story about all of us being late.. Heh. Then we walked around, went to eat at Central cha caan teng at taka.. And nic embarassed us by talking and laughing too loudly. The worst thing was that our topic of conversation was well, better conducted in lower tones HAHAHHA. Words like "sex", "balls" "fuck" etc were tossed around a bit too loudly (other words shall be censored yah).. Oh I must remember that Steph uh has er.. 'mild' pedo tendencies.. HAHAHA. We had Ben&Jerry's at Cathay after that courtesy of nic's coupons =) More chats and all.

this picture.. well we just HAD to pose outside this store. so we took turns. i posted the best looking set of three pictures. hahaha

COME BACK SOON NIC BABY!!! LOVE YOU LOTS. Can't believe i've only known you for about 3 months? Since October (homecoming).. And i'll see you next in about the same time! 3-4months!! So freaking weird. But so glad that we had psy331 together or i don't think i'd have become as close to you haha. Shit. COME BACK SOON GIRL *love*

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Ok so val kinda met me at the Cathay and nic had to leave first so me val and steph went to check out the gramophone sale thing for awhile, then steph went home for dinner while val and I headed down to Clarke Quay to meet Shumin (and much later, ps.. haha) yea and had food at Pasta Waraku, had lots of fun camwhoring, ps turned up, more camwhoring, chats, went to some pub(the name of which i cannot remember)... Bah. Pictures will speak way louder than words so just look haha.

See what I meant? hahaha and this is only a SMALL sampling of the photos we took. Full albums of all outings are on FB =) With fun captions! hahaha. Go see! Hahaha.

In short, was fun haha. Weird to spend the whole day talking about sex/sex-related stuff though, and in various very very public places too. HAHA.

Ok so anyway, there're 2 Songs for today. The first one is just the Lullaby from the Twilight movie.. I found that there were lyrics for this song and found them SOOOO appropriate for the show lol. So here it is:

Lullaby (Goodnight My Angel) - Billy Joel
*Verse 1*
Good night my angel time to close your eyes
And save these questions for another day
I think I know what you've been asking me
I think you know what I've been trying to say

I promised I would never leave you
And you should always know
Where ever you may go
No matter where you are
I never will be far away

*Verse 2*
Good night my angel now it's time to sleep
And still so many things I want to say
Remember all the songs you sang for me
When we went sailing on an emerald bay

And like a boat out on the ocean
I'm rocking you to sleep
The water's dark and deep
Inside this ancient heart
You'll always be a part of me

(Musical Bridge)
Do do do do...

*Verse 3*
Goodnight my angel now it's time to dream
And dream how wondeful your life will be
Someday your child will cry and if you sing this lullaby
Then in your heart there will always be a part of me

Someday we'll all be gone
But lullabies go on and on
They never die that's how you and I will be

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Don't you think it's SOOOOOO appropriate??? It's like Edward singing this directly to Bella! Goodness. Haha. Ok the next song is today's Song of the Day..

Come On Get Higher - Matt Nathanson
I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in

If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the sound of your voice
The loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said

If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the pull of your heart
I could taste the sparks on your tongue
I see angels and devils
And God, when you come on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

Sing sha la la la
Sing sha la la la la

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me, drown me in love

So wrong, so wrong,
It's so truly right
So come on, get higher
Come on, get higher
'Cause everything works, love
Everything works in your arms

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Yup haha that's all for now. Till the next time, CIAOOO

are you so strong or is the weakness in me?

2009-01-11T06:46:00.000-08:00

well sorry i haven't blogged in awhile.. i've kind of had a life lately

went to the gym on wednesday with xyz.. i think i've already blogged about that.. then made plans to meet up with mich but well, if you read the facebook day entry you'll know who invited themselves.. and so i ended up deciding to go swimming with xyz instead. we had a fun day swimming and then i met mich in town, we shopped, chatted, and watched Twilight on a whim! and boy was that a good decision!

EDWARDDDDDD *squeee*

i'm so super obssessed with Twilight now. and it's good too coz I'm kinda over my previous obssession now.. hehe. I've been randomly screaming "Edwaaardddd" to my friends and cousins hahaha. So glad i don't have a friend who's actually called Edward. LOL. Ok so anyways, we made plans to meet up again on Friday night after my tuition and church dinner.. So yea I went for the church thing but cancelled my tuition haha. After the church dinner thing at IBP, i went to meet mich and ja in town! We went to the Muddy Murphy's Irish Pub near Orchard Towers (lots of whores!) to chill out..

I hate how white my skin looks. Stupid flash.

Ok so yea went back kinda early (for pubbing i suppose. we left at 1030pm? I got back to my place around 1230am).. But it was nice that as I was walking home from the train station, I had a nice quiet lonely walk, i think coz it was past midnight so there were a LOT less people.. It was quiet and isolated, which made for a fantastic walk for me.

Alright then Saturday... everything only began at night.. I spent the day reading Twilight and New Moon (lent to me by cousins Shannon and Nicole) and realized that I was going to finish New Moon (actually finished it within 10mins of my realization lol) so was desperately craving the next 2 books. Decided to go to town to get the books since I recalled seeing some in Borders. Made arrangements to meet val and decided to check out Popular instead. Met val at 830pm at JE popular, was informed by the Popular staff that the books were out of stock at Populars islandwide!!! OMFGGG. I was really kinda high though (val can vouch lol).. Called a buncha people to help me get the book in town coz i was worried the stores were closing (coz stores in US close at freaking what, 7pm/8pm/latest 9pm).. Many thanks go out to charmaine for helping me check the bookstore downstairs of where she works, and ELVESSS for checking out borders AND kino! you rock!!! Sadly, the last 2 books were out of stock at ALL the abovementioned places! At this point you could literally hear my heart break.

BIG BIG THANKS however must go out to MICH who pointed me to a place I could get my hands on the book... Heh. So i was lucky enough to get to read it all through last night. HAPPY =) But I digress. After we met at Popular and ascertained that there wasn't gonna be any way i could get my hands on the book, we went to JEC (walked through a pasar malam, which i've missed a LOT) only to realize the place has closed down!!!! wtf! So we went back through the pasar malam, bought some yummies (muah chee, goreng pisang OMGGG) and then went to IMM.. We sat at Secret Recipe and had Caesar's salad, chocolate banana cake, hazelnut latte for her and oreo milkshake for me! YUMM. chatted, chilled and I lost some of my adrenaline (sugar does weird things for me. a little bit of it gets me high but a LOT of it calms me down and makes me nua lol) I think I nua-ed partly also because I was kinda depressed at not getting the books lol.

Anyways. yea that was Saturday. I caught the last train back and walked a nice walk home again =)

Today was simple, just church and then family gathering. Fun as usual =)

School starts on Tuesday. Meeting 2 of my favorite bunches of people tomorrow!! Steph+nic in the day and NJBunch at night!!! Yay.

Like I said, my life's been kinda packed. haha
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Now that event-blog's done, some thoughts. I've got a huge bunch of new books to read, thank goodness, because I was sad previously (before i left for buffalo) that my books were all read at least 10xs already.. But now i have books! Haha. Some were lent to me by my cousins, some were from buffalo, some i bought here. So here's what I've been reading (and i'm really really really worried about my package that has yet to arrive. It has a HUGE bunch of books that I wanna read and like, my heart just clenches when I think about it. I will call SingPost tomorrow. I'm so so so worried =( )

The Left Behind Series (10books! i think) [have actually read this before but am re-reading]
Sophie Kinsella's Undomestic Goddess (the Shopaholic series is in that package......)
Sophie Kinsella's Remember Me?
Anthony Horowitz's Snakehead (courtesy of cousin Josh)
Stephanie Meyer's Twilight and New Moon (DONE) (courtesy of cousins shannon and nicole)
others i cannot remember or are in the package... Like the Time Traveler's Wife and urgh so many more!!!! Shit i'm so worried =(

Song of the day!

千年泪 by Tank

才话别已深秋, 只一眼就花落
窗台人影独坐, 夜沉的更寂寞
一段路分两头, 爱了却要放手
无事东风走过, 扬起回忆如昨

摇摇欲坠, 不只你的泪, 还有仅剩的世界
嘲笑的风, 高唱的离别, 我却听不见

穿越千年的眼泪, 只有梦里看得见
我多想再见你, 哪怕一面
前世末了的眷恋, 在我血液里分裂
沉睡中缠绵, 清醒又幻减

梦在前世发觉, 我在梦里搁浅
月光浸湿从前, 掺拌了的想念
你眺望着天边, 我眺望你的脸
谨记你的容颜, 来世把你寻找

摇摇欲坠, 不只你的泪, 还有仅剩的世界
嘲笑的风, 高唱的离别, 我却听不见

穿越千年的眼泪, 只有梦里看得见
我多想再见你, 哪怕一面
前世末了的眷恋, 在我血液里分裂
沉睡中缠绵, 清醒又幻减

摇摇欲坠, 不只你的泪
嘲笑的风, 高唱的离别
不管还要等待多少年...

穿越千年的眼泪, 只有梦里看得见
我多想再见你, 哪怕一面
前世末了的眷恋, 在我血液里分裂
沉睡中缠绵, 清醒又幻减

Very nice song by Tank from the Tian Wai Fei Xian drama. OMG i feel like watching that show again haha. We'll see.

Alright that's all for now. No colors today! Tell me if you prefer with colors or without. Ok ciao people!!

somehow it's less than before. but i don't want to let go. i think.

2009-01-07T09:02:00.001-08:00

so i had a productive day today.

spent like 10hrs on facebook i think! omg man. after gym+chats+movie+lunch with siying, i got stuck on fb! haha. first with steph's wall! Read from bottom up.

Cherlynn Zra wrote at 6:06pm babe! ali our amazing RA is gonna send us something cool to my place!! yay!! let you know when i get them. HEHE
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Cherlynn Zra wrote
at 4:42pm

that's the class we have together babe. you'll love it, i'm in it! =) hehe. and evy too! i'll be with evy and mz most of the time i guess but you know i'm gonna hang with you guys yea? let's do any projs together haha that is, if your clique is short of people.

my clique's size has been drastically reduced since 2 out of 4 of us dropped the marketing minor so evy and I have no choice but to alliance with the last-girl-standing of abs' clique. my goodness. sounds like war. hahahaa.

i'm SO applying for that. i'm not abandoning you guys! i'll be back to visit every CNY. HAHA. i'm not going to miss those angpows man. And you can come over during Halloween!!! HALLOWEEN BABE, HALLOWEEN! hahaha.

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Steph He (Singapore) wrote at 4:39pm www.speedwing.org :) and u can be a graduate to apply for it too. good luck with that, dear. U will have no problems fitting in the US working environment. But why do u wanna abandon all of us here again? :( my schedule sucks too. only class from 3-430pm on Tues,Thurs. Seriously, in the middle of the day. Man, what luck.
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Cherlynn Zra wrote at 4:39pm omg i always reply you using "wall-to-wall" so i didn't realize you were chatting to abs and joce as well. waves HELLO GIRLS!!! haha. man i'm so glad we're almost all back. i can talk with you guys again!! wheee. HI JOCE!! HI ABS!!!
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Cherlynn Zra wrote
at 4:34pm

oooh ooh ooh! hmmmm.. the thing i wanna apply for is a summer thing but i might have misread something and it could be applicable year-round too. HMMMM oh things are looking up haha. but there's a requirement that I be a full-time tertiary student leh and I'm only a full-time tertiary student till july!

i'm gonna look at the speedwing thing thanks babe =) oh but you know i'm going to work in US right? hopefully, that is. I'm jobsearching specifically on that area, will let you know more

yeps i start on Tues too. I hate my timetable. tues and thurs 9-1030am then 3pm-430pm.. then fridays for ntr at 1130am. wtf.

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Steph He (Singapore) wrote
at 4:29pm

That's a REALLY long post! lol. serious? haha, cant wait to hear about it then :p gossip gossip, thanks to the GQ! lol. i start sch on tuesday though. U too right?

Hmm, can u head for the WORK-IN-USA thing say later this year? Or is it strictly only for summer period? Dang! Try speedwing org, they arrange such stuff too. :) And if im not mistaken, they do it ALL YR round :)

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Cherlynn Zra wrote
at 4:24pm

omg I KNOWWWWW. i prefer the weather in Buffalo though! sg is too bloody humid! i take walks at night around my house area, coz it's kinda cooling, but by the time i walk back to my house there's this layer of moisture on my skin and i'm like wtf??

i think my complexion improved in Buffalo hahaha. dunno. my skin is crap anyway.

i know what you mean about the "did the 4 mths even happen?" thing.. i kinda feel that way too. I spend a lot of time revisiting pics and stuff to assure myself that all of it was real and to remind myself what everything looked like.

you're right. life has to go on. I'm going to apply for this work-live-play in america thing ahhaha. but i realized the timing is bad coz tiantian and kohei will be coming when i'm leaving (if i apply for the thing) so I'm kinda torn!!!

i can't wait for school to start so I can see you and ur gang again. and apparently, a lotta stuff has been happening!! *gossip gossip* hehehehehe. lots to update you about. wheeee

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Steph He (Singapore) wrote
at 4:20pm

haha.speaking of hair, i think my skin complexion was way better in sg but buffalo destroyed it lol. anyway, i know.. i didnt meet up with any of my friends the whole time yet cz i dunno.. somehow, i just couldnt believe that im back. It's almost like " Did the 4mths even happened?" right?

But oh well, life has to go on right... Maybe, starting sch next wk will help get me adjusted back to the sg lifestyle lol.

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Cherlynn Zra wrote
at 4:14pm

*nods vigorously* i had problems adjusting when i got back la. like i thought sg money looked v fake lolll plastic one can!? haha. and i miss wendy'ssssss... haha. and everything la. you know what i mean =)

thank God for my friends.. they're making things easier for me. but i kinda preferred being back there with all the independence and shit. bleah.

i'll be so damn sad when nic leaves sg!!! ='(

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Steph He (Singapore) wrote
at 4:12pm

Oh yea, ur fb status states that. I didnt realised it. Hmm, but u've all your good pals here with u in Singapore now. :) I kinda know what u mean, I've been having withdrawal symptoms man.. haha, still cant believe that Im back in Singapore already. I mean, sometimes - that 4mths in UB just seems so surreal... and it's gone just like that. Too fast, too fast. Im still stuck in the "Im in America" mentality.

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Cherlynn Zra wrote
at 4:07pm

i know i'm like constantly on fb hahaha. i dunno girl i'm pretty free =) anytime i guess. say the word and i'll be there =D wheee~

do you know how badly I miss buffalo? like super badly! like cutting out my heart and like, microwaving it or something!! sigh. HAHA.

i miss you too la but i'll see you so frequently next sem that i'm gonna get sick of you. hehehehe =) can't wait for THAT. ♥

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Steph He (Singapore) wrote at 3:47pm haha.. ure always on fb! lol. yes, when when? when are we meeting babe? haha..
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OK STOP

I also had a 'chat' of sorts with James from WRUB about my status.. Which i had JUST changed...

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Cherlynn thinks her hair is better in Singapore but her heart and soul were better in Buffalo. 4:15pm - 7 Comments

James Ghazarian at 4:31pm January 7

One time I left my heart and soul in Buffalo.

Cherlynn Zra at 4:32pm January 7

and how did you get it back?

James Ghazarian at 4:33pm January 7

I had to go back.

James Ghazarian at 4:33pm January 7

also alcohol helps

Cherlynn Zra at 4:35pm January 7

lol. ok i'll do the alcohol and i'm definitely going back to Buffalo. i think my heart and soul are there, actually. but i miss them. i miss my heart and soul! my beautiful hair misses my heart and soul!

James Ghazarian at 4:36pm January 7

yeah nice hair btw

Cherlynn Zra at 4:37pm January 7

HAHAHA thanks! you too (lol)

OK STOP

then my RA messaged me on facebook and we chatted for awhile... No logs there though, heh. Then uh I wrote on a buncha ppl's walls including jocelyn, ali, etc.. Replied to stuff. Oh and pestered mich!

Michelle wants the snow storm to stop. 3:31pm - 40 Comments

Cherlynn Zra at 4:09pm January 7

i waaant snowwww!! where the hell are you???

Michelle Cher at 4:16pm January 7

i am still in singapore lah. leaving on mon night. i need to see yiou. tmr afternoon??? or friday afternoon???

Cherlynn Zra at 4:17pm January 7

friday i'm not free!! tml tml tml!! i miss you and where are you going missy? why never tell me!?!?!?

Michelle Cher at 4:21pm January 7

huh. i told u i gg france wat. hello? u dreaming ar. tong they all know lo. tmr. okay. 12nn. lunch and shopping and hightea. (: town/bugis? u choose.

Cherlynn Zra at 4:26pm January 7

hehehehe YAY omg so happy haha ok hmm how abt vivo?

i didn't know u going france! or maybe i was really asleep. jetlag la. haha. omg so romanticcccc~ and eh i need to talk to you la. haha. so we talk tml? WHEEEE good good

Michelle Cher at 4:30pm January 7

dun want vivo lah.so boringggg. i need to spend some vouchers at isetan and zara (:

Cherlynn Zra at 4:31pm January 7

haha ok town then! on! 12nn in town. wheee see ya tml babe, i'm excited =)

Lim Si Tong at 5:01pm January 7

Y NEVER INVITE ME?! U 2 TAI TAIS!!! :(

Cherlynn Zra at 5:01pm January 7

er. we cannot go out w/o u meh????

Lim Si Tong at 5:21pm January 7

Can can...Go go go go... :)

I was just kidding :P

Cherlynn Zra at 5:22pm January 7

i know! i got go out with you w/o mich or eu de ah. haha

we meet up nx time go K ok? let's go w/o mich. MWAHAHA

Michelle Cher at 5:23pm January 7

ass. haha. you want come anot? but we shopping and hightea wan leh. u probably faint after one hr of shopping! hhahaha. but maybe we can lunch tog. i need see tong too (:

Lim Si Tong at 5:26pm January 7

Cherlynn: Lol...lunch can?!

Michelle: Lunch can! I got lesson at 1pm till night...lol!

Cherlynn Zra at 5:26pm January 7

*anything!

Lim Si Tong at 5:27pm January 7

Cherlynn: Yay! Go K tgt next time :)

Lim Si Tong at 5:28pm January 7

Okie!!! Meet where at what time? :P

Cherlynn Zra at 5:28pm January 7

it's up there. 12nn in town

Michelle Cher at 5:28pm January 7

town. 12nn. ahaa.

Michelle Cher at 5:29pm January 7

omg. fb not msn leh. 18 comments alr. pple will think we are mad.

Cherlynn Zra at 5:29pm January 7

who tell u not on msn now!

OK STOP

Then I left fb for awhile to do regular human stuff like shower, read, etc.. Then i came back and checked out Eunice's pics on facebook and began a convo with siying on mich's status. lol. it follows from above and goes like this

Li Siying at 11:15pm January 7

me me.. what about me?
can i go?

Cherlynn Zra at 11:15pm January 7

totally welcome, li siying! please come! or we go somewhere on our own la! =P

Li Siying at 11:17pm January 7

don't want la.. you guys MESC.. i extra.
then again, hmmm, who else is going?

Cherlynn Zra at 11:18pm January 7

ehh not only mesc ba. it's like, MISE lor haha some new clique.. hehehe. we go swimming la~

Li Siying at 11:20pm January 7

ok ok! swimming swimming..
michelle, cherlynn's not going anymore.. =)

Michelle Cher at 11:21pm January 7

omg. this is really funny. u all are conversing on my status bar. haha. eh. all come lah. lisiying. come! u still owe me one lo! supposed to come on my birthday. then pangseh! just come. (: lunch 11am. and cherlynn stop being jealous of idrene lah. u are the best kk (:

Cherlynn Zra at 11:23pm January 7

you never invite me to ur bday worh and i gave you sth lor!

PUI! jealous of idrene!!?!????? i'm ditching this clique man. siying let's go sun our buns. i don't go with you all le. haha

Li Siying at 11:24pm January 7

why would cherlynn be jealous of irene? cherlynn's the one who has my company lor.. nah, meeting bf for lunch.. swimming (with cherlynn), then lunch.. owe you again!

Cherlynn Zra at 11:25pm January 7

siying ur reply v confusing. so you are meeting me first, then colin for lunch la? haha.

Li Siying at 11:28pm January 7

ya... what other interpretations are there? ok ok. cherlynn, want to join me for lunch (before you say i didnt invite..).. who else wants to go?

Michelle Cher at 11:28pm January 7

me want go also! (:

Cherlynn Zra at 11:30pm January 7

xiao ah! ppl go meet boyfriend leh wah lao. ji dong mah. i very ji dong one.. *cough cough* i know when i'm not wanted. siying, swimming will do. mich dun lightbulb la! hehe

Li Siying at 11:32pm January 7

you're a bitch.
but a nice one.. lunch with you guys another day.. =)

Cherlynn Zra at 11:34pm January 7

why am i a bitch? i help you create romantic atmosphere by shooing others away leh! plus by being jidong lor! lol. see ya tml xyzzzz

Michelle Cher at 11:34pm January 7

haha. how i know rite. so unfriendly wan. lunch another day. must wait 7 months man. i know u gonna miss me. mwahahaha.

Li Siying at 11:35pm January 7

oh ya.. you're leaving..
hmm.. when are you leaving?
not unfriendly la.. it's called, zhong se qing you..

Cherlynn Zra at 11:35pm January 7

sigh mich i will definitely miss you a lot leh howwww. will you be free let's say saturday?

Li Siying at 11:35pm January 7

oh oh, mon night.. hmm.. sian.. 7 months

Michelle Cher at 11:35pm January 7

huh? see her tmr? u not meeting us?!?!

Cherlynn Zra at 11:37pm January 7

i seeing her tml for swimming. then see what time finish then find u in town lor. you all have lunch without me. =)

OK STOP

hmmmmm.. yup and THEN i had a really really crazy time. Talked to siying on the phone and we got damn bloody high on facebook. Ben joined in too coz i tagged his wall, and siying was commenting on a pic that had him in it. So yea. We ended up having a 3way msn convo. For more deets check out my FB wall.

So suffice to say.. I had a jolly Facebook day. Tskkkk

I am duly ashamed. I will now go slap myself. HEHE.

ehh... we'll see..

2009-01-07T04:21:00.001-08:00

lol

BEFORE

AFTER (photoshop)

guess what i've been up to again?? haha quite obvious right. damn. photoshopping!! yay. haha. yikes. sometimes i get very insecure showing what i've done coz i'm scared you all will be all the more drawn to my flaws since the 'before' pics will be so gross. but heck la. i'm gym-ing ok. and getting dental surgery! (damn forgot to call the dentist againnnn) so yea i'll hopefully achieve my desired physical self soon hehehe.

so anyways, edited the above pic for lighting and slimmed down the arm a bit lol. Got a bit carried away and ended up editing some other pics, which resulted in the pics below.. HMMM..

LOLLL wtf right, look like "Cherlynn" trading cards. ANW yea. A bit (a lot) narcissistic but anyhoo. You'll notice that the pics of me are photoshopped to within an inch of their lives. haha. here's the original pics, edits and side-by-side(sbs) comparisons!

Original 1

Edit 1

SidebySide Comparison 1

Work done: Lighting, (exposure and curves for high contrast).. Liquify (for getting rid of fats!!) Then i erased the bg.

The next one features more drastic work done i think. Hahah.

Original 2

Edit 2

SidebySide comparison 2

And the work done here was same as above.. Lighting, liquify and erased bg (coz it got very woozy haha) But the liquify work here was more extensive.. HEHE. Oh but i didn't liquify my ass much. Didn't really know how to do properly and i kinda liked my ass before. haha but it's too big for the new bod though. Lol.

Come on plastic surgeons! I want lipo. Haha. No la. I want some kinda miracle exercise. I want Personal trainer. I wanna tone up!!! Ohwells. Haha went to gym today but i think xyz and I overcompensated after that with McDelivery lunch. So in the end status quo. Was supposed to go gym again tml to make up for it but have to meet mich. So hehe next time ba. I'll jump some rope later. Hopefully it helps.

Gah! Stop staring at my fats!!!

I'll be back later to blog =) loves~

nothing to say in a good way =)

2009-01-06T11:30:00.000-08:00

yoohoo! i'm back hehe. well not a proper thought/event blog but an update nonetheless =)

i was just reading bryanboy (for the first time! lol.) and he recommended a great astrology website that I decided to go read, seeing as I had a short little affair with reading my horoscopes on a daily basis a while back. this thing is stunningly accurate!! well for some parts at least! so here it goes!

[digression: omg am talking to abby, heard some EXTREMELY shocking news. OMGOMGOMGOMG all the way. ok. back to blogging]

so anyway, here goes my horoscope.. My forecast for january, taken from AstrologyZone!:
I'm gonna highlight the important parts=)

Scorpio (October 23 - November 21)

Your January Horoscope by Susan Miller

Scorpio Horoscope for January 2009

By Susan Miller

This will be a solid month and one that should make you very optimistic about your New Year. You appear to be mulling over some rather large questions concerning your living quarters and your next big career move. On both counts, your timing will be excellent if you sort out your options in January but patiently wait to act in February. With that plan, luck will be on your side in a very big way, and you'll see how well the year proceeds!
As you begin the month, there is some indication that you may be traveling. This is a trend that started last month, so it appears that you've been in perpetual motion ever since the holiday season began. Last month you seem to have been living out of a suitcase and enjoying yourself. You were smart to travel then, while you could, because in just a month or two you won't find it as easy to slip away. You still can get away in January, so if you have the yen to go to a new setting, do so straightaway.

As soon as you get back to the office, your BlackBerry will buzz its way across your desk and emails will overflow in your email box. You'll need all your energy to keep up. If you have urgent business, focus on getting things done during the first few days of January, because very soon after that, you will start to notice an annoying slowdown. People will be harder to reach, and if you do reach them, they'll become indecisive. The reason for this is easy - Mercury will go retrograde on January 1. You and I will discuss this in a moment.

More travel seems to come up for you at the full moon January 10, and this time it appears you might be on your way to a foreign country. This may translate into long flight across the Pacific, or a tiny flight across the border. Either way, you it looks like you'll be heading to a new setting within four days of this date. That full moon will send a lovely beam to Uranus, so you may just pick up and go very spontaneously. This will be a full moon, so you won't be away long - it would be completed by January 13 or 14 at the latest.
If you want to go for a longer period, say, a week, then leave earlier. For example, you may want to leave January 2 or 3, and return home by January 11. I like that timetable - see if it works for you.

As a good rule of thumb, you would always want to return from a trip before the full moon completely wanes. Your energy will fade as the fullness of the moon goes down, so you will not enjoy your travels much as you would at the start of your trip. Whenever you travel, always try to finish your journey on the full moon or three days after at the most for best results.

As I mentioned, Mercury will begin to retrograde from January 11 and remain so until February 1, a time you will see a definite slowdown to activities. You were busy over the holidays, so you may welcome the leisurely pace that Mercury will bring. You'll get a chance to exhale and reorganize yourself while the world begins to settle down to a crawl.

You may be asked to deal with a few legal issues this month or be asked to sign papers. If so, study the clauses and build a strategy with your lawyer. Decide on what needs to be done, but take your time. When Mercury retrogrades, you can be sure that the wind will soon change direction and the criteria you are using to make decisions will soon change and be less important as new priorities replace the old ones.

It would not be wise to make any firm decisions about a new venture during Mercury out of phase. The tricky part about Mercury retrograde is that you could easily be lulled into thinking everything is normal and that it's fine to move forward. Alas, it decidedly is not. Instead, it is a good time to look back on past decisions and projects, and to revisit, reassess, and rethink your assumptions. New information that will emerge in weeks ahead could make you regret making a certain decision now. Wait and you will be happy you did.
On top of the confusing situation that Mercury will bring, a solar eclipse is due this month, so trust that there will be big shifts taking place around you. Until that eclipse has spoken - along with the second one that is due February 9 - you won't know which end is up. I know you are action oriented, but be patient, dear Scorpio.

Your home life is about to become a main focus of your attention and an enormous source of pride and happiness. You will see this to be true almost immediately from the moment Jupiter enters Aquarius and your fourth house of home and family on January 5, to stay for a full year.

Jupiter is the planet of good fortune, and he expands everything he touches. Now that Jupiter will be visiting your home sector, you may start to think about moving to new quarters. If so, you will be moving at a simply fantastic time. Jupiter has not been in your home and family sector since 1997, so this trend is brand new. You will notice it in 2009, but particularly so in February! Jupiter is the planet of miracles, so you may get a super deal, too.

If you are searching for a new apartment or house, accept nothing but the largest, most beautiful sunny space you can find. You've waited twelve years for this opportunity, so don't blow your luck on something you don't really like. You can insist on the best, even in tight real estate markets. You won't be ready to act until February, so you have lots of time to look. (With Mercury retrograding in your home sector in January, you should hold back anyway.)

If you are trying to sell a house, listen to your broker's advice and be the one to make the final decision. If you are married, for example, don't let your partner choose the price or do the negotiating - you do it. The only exception would be if your partner is a Scorpio, too. This year, 2009, Scorpio will have the magic touch with all sorts of real estate decisions and transactions. Remember, plan this month but act next month.
If you work in the real estate or home-related financial markets, or in decorating or architecture, you should do really well this year! Actually, this is the one area that will glow brilliantly!

If you have been concerned about the health or welfare of a parent, Jupiter's entry into your home sector should be very good news. You can expect that your parent will show an upturn in health, and if you have been looking for options for a medical diagnosis or physical therapy, or to hire a helper for your mother or father, you should find good choices now.

In order for a new trend to take hold in a chart, you need more than one planet to help out. Remarkably, you will have a whole crowd of happy little planets jumping up and down in your home and property house.

Your first sign that something good is about to happen will be on the monumental meeting of the Sun and Jupiter, an annual event that I call the "luckiest day of the year." These two will meet in your home sector over the two days, January 23-24. Put a star on both!

If you need a new place to live, or want to meet with a contractor to redo your kitchen or bath, this is your year to do it. Get estimates on your luckiest days of the year. You may also find a new piece of furniture or other beautiful things for your home, possibly on sale. Jupiter brings luck, so expect to find bargains. Careful, though - no buying of electronics or very expensive things while Mercury is retrograde. Your item just won't deliver the pleasure you expect from it. You can browse, but plan to shop for those in February.

You can also expect to see luck with your career at about the same time that the Sun and Jupiter meet over January 23-24. The Sun rules your solar tenth house of career status and promotion, so you should expect to receive amazing favor from an authority figure.
Your very best career day of the month - and possibly of the New Year - will be Friday, January 23, but you will also feel excitement one day before on Thursday, January 22. Next month you will have a lunar eclipse on February 9, so you may see a huge professional development then, or within several days of that date. A lot appears to be going in your career, but all of the changes will work in your favor. Have faith!

Your focus will return to your home or property-related situation at the solar eclipse January 26 and in the weeks to follow. An eclipse is always a dramatic event in a chart - even if you had said to yourself, "I will decide about whether to sign my lease later in the year," that time schedule will go out the window now. Perhaps exciting career developments will cause you to rethink your home situation almost immediately. You may even move across country, for eclipses are very powerful.

Your parents are also covered by the fourth house that is so lit up, so one parent, either your mother or father, may be very helpful to you now. If you need family support, ask for it. Your family loves you dearly, and it's showing up in your chart. If you need help, don't be shy about speaking up.

This month's solar eclipse on January 26 will be an unusually friendly one. Jupiter will glide close to the new moon and Sun, so if you search for home or property options, something special should surface.

You are a fixed sign, so massive changes on the home front, or anywhere else in your life, are generally not ones you look upon with enthusiasm. Now, however, the time may be so right to act that you do despite your hesitation - and within weeks become almost giddy with the prospects of your new living situation.

There is always the chance that you would stay home and simply fix your place up. Repairs would go exceptionally well in January, for Mercury retrograde in your home sector will help you get things done that have languished on your list. Next month you can go shopping for a beautiful new piece for one of your rooms, or decide to paint one or more rooms. Sometimes a few new accessories are all you need to make a room seem brand new.

If you need to sell your house, let buyers look, but accept bids only in February for a smooth experience that's hassle free. That would not be quite the case in January with Mercury retrograde. If you need to buy furniture or any electronics, the same rule holds - browse and decide what you need now, but actually buy in February. If you paid for furniture last month, and it is being readied for delivery, ask for a February delivery so it is not damaged in transport.

Romantically, if you are attached, you may be contemplating moving in with your lover. If you hope for marriage, that may not be a good idea. If you have no plans to marry because you have been married before, then it may be fine to do.

Still, Scorpio is a very independent sign, so ending your own living situation is likely to eventually cause you some anxiety, and with Mercury retrograde, you may not have given this enough thought. Uranus in your house of true love can make you impulsive. When it comes to love and living together, the picture is confused, so it would be better to wait.

Generally, love should be bright this month. Venus will travel in Pisces, in your fifth house of true love - great news, for Venus' job is to make your charms very visible. Venus has not been in this area of your chart for a year, so this is news, and Venus will stay until early February. If you want, you can think about changing your appearance, with great results.

Another terrific weekend will actually start on Saturday, January 10, when love may follow you like a magnet. Uranus will be in a beautiful angle to the Sun, so your trip may happen spontaneously. If taken for fun and love, you should be really pleased! This will be a full moon in Cancer, so your feelings will be heightened in the best way.
On January 22, Venus will conjoin Uranus, a truly glorious day if you are single and looking for love, for this day could bring an unexpected, chance meeting with someone very intriguing. Both Venus and Uranus will be in Pisces and will meet in your house of true love. You could not ask for anything more! That day is special for another reason, for Mars, your ruler, will also be in contact with surprise-a-minute Uranus. Gee, dear Scorpio - this is a dazzling day for so many reasons. If you want to travel over this weekend, it may be a superb idea.

Home will be a happy place for you this month, so you might want to give a little party for friends over January 24-25. With Venus in a sexy angle to Mars, it should be a hit!

Romantic evenings: January 1-2, 9-11 (for travel), 13, 18-19, 22 (four stars), 23-25 (home related), and 28-29.

Lol!! Things in red are things that are either TRUE or I wanna take note of. Like for example the helpful parent thing. My mom walked in for no reason today to give me money. And she's helping me look for a part-time job. I'm also doing stuff about my career now so that's appropos too..

All the romance romance stuff just sounds super interesting mwahahahaha. I'm gonna be so looking forward to those "romantic evenings" can HAHA. Btw like, i'm still quite skeptical about horoscopes.. LOL. So we'll see =)

But I really found some of the stuff very true coz of the December reading. It was really really accurate! Especially the part about patching up with a sibling!!! OMG! Ok here it is:

If you have never had a good relationship with your sibling, this year could change all that, so keep an open mind. This December, offer an olive branch. You may see the riff you have between you and a sibling heal, for December 2008 represents one of your best periods in more than ten years for healing your sibling relationship. By January 5, Jupiter will leave this placement, not to return until 2019, so while you have this advantage, use it!

OMG HOW TRUE IS THAT???? So i was kinda like WOAH. All geeked out. Haha. Here's the rest of the reading for Dec for you guys to see how true it was =)

Scorpio (October 23 - November 21)
Your December Horoscope by Susan Miller

Scorpio Horoscope for December 2008

By Susan Miller

This should be a fun month, filled with reasons to travel, to shop, to see lots of friends, and to fully experience the joy of the season. In years past you have had to concentrate so much on your work that your career may have cut into time to enjoy the holidays. This year seems different, and for that you'll be very happy indeed.

The month takes off with a truly sterling aspect, for Venus will be in perfect alignment with Jupiter on December 1. This represents a once-a-year meeting of two highly benefic planets, so you will likely enjoy the dazzling spirit filtering the air. December 1 is a day worth planning something special to do - talks and actions should lead you in precisely the direction you had hoped. It's also a fine day for a trip for business or personal reasons.

With Mars - your guardian planet and also planet of energy - now touring your house of personal resources and possessions, you will feel generous and jovial. No doubt, you'll want to spend freely. Even if you are worried about the recent gyrations of the stock market, you seem to have solid confidence in your future and you want to spend for gifts to make friends and family happy for the holiday. Be careful, however. This month is not quite like most, and the one area you will be most vulnerable is in terms of your finances.

Because your spending will be high throughout December, you might want to decide early on how much you can comfortably afford so that you can avoid any untoward surprises later. The holidays are always hard on the bank account - for everybody - and it is easy to spend more than we should. This month you seem to have a harder time than usual holding the line. This may be because one or two unexpected expected expenses will come up, or because you will see the perfect gift to give a friend or relative, and you'll snap it up. These things do happen.

To keep yourself sane, you may want to have a little emergency money set aside for such instances, should you need it. Scorpio is a very savvy sign when it comes to handing money, so I am not too concerned about how you will fare. I just want you to know that until December 27, spending balances will be up.

I need to tell you about a very difficult full moon that's due December 12. It is not easy to deliver this kind of news, but I do so in the hopes that you will be able to plan so you won't feel broadsided. While Mars will be encouraging you to spend more, the full moon will ask you to suddenly pay the piper. The full moon will occur in your house of other people's money, which in everyday terms governs the house of credit and loans - money you owe others. It also rules commissions, royalties, venture capital, pensions, inheritances, child support, division of property in a divorce, a mortgage or refinancing plans, and although I would rather not even say the word, bankruptcy. Let's stay positive.

Perhaps you feel you know what might come up. Whatever it is, it appears that you will be writing a big, unexpected check or that you will get news of a decision that represents a loss or funds you expected but find you are not going to receive. If you have to write a check, with the full moon and Mars in hard angle to Uranus, it looks like what comes up will come out of left field, with no advance preparation.

Pluto will be active, so someone is likely to be very insistent that you pay, and this person will not be flexible. (When Pluto is involved, negotiations become dictates. Pluto is known to foster "scorched earth" types of negotiation, which translates into "my way or the highway." On top of this, Saturn will be in hard angle to the moon too, indicating that there will be no way to avoid acknowledging one's responsibility or alternatively, accepting a loss and moving on. It gives me no pleasure telling you this news, dear Scorpio. This looks like a painful full moon, and I hope you can prepare for it. Pluto is your ruling planet, and Mars is your secondary ruler, so Scorpios of all birthdays will feel this heat.

Jarring financial news will surface as early as Wednesday, December 10, when Uranus will be in hard angle to the Sun. The full moon will follow on Friday, December 12, but all full moons have an area of influence of four days, so things will peak in that time frame. As you see, you won't have much time to maneuver.

Because Mars and Saturn will be at hard angles on the heels of these two aspects on Monday, December 15, the episode will end at that time - by then you'll need a solution. The good part is that events will move rapidly. You will need to find a fast solution, and the episode will be over just as quickly. Be thankful that this full moon falls early enough in December, hopefully not to affect your spirit at end-of-the-month holidays.

You won't see what's coming, so there's not much you can do to prepare. Normally I would say, keep your schedule light near the full moon, but at holiday time, I realize that's nearly impossible. Do the best you can, dear Scorpio.

Once you get to December 21, when the Sun moves into Capricorn, your spirits will rise and life will seem better and easier. A meeting with a powerful person on December 22 could bring you a financial breakthrough and the opening of a new financial path. It is also possible that someone will ask you to sign a contract. If you have studied it beforehand, you can do so.

December 24 brings more good news, quite suddenly, just when you thought nothing much would happen at month's end. Just as the full moon news is to be unexpected, news you get on Christmas Eve will be too, but this time it's exciting news - just the kind you wanted to hear!

If you are close to your sister or brother, you will grow even closer this month - particularly so near the holidays. You will have much greater than usual interaction with one another, and have plenty to discuss. Most importantly, your sibling will have a calming influence on you. She or he may offer sound advice and a few ideas to unlock a current dilemma.

Astrologically, if you find yourself in a tight spot, always look to the position of Jupiter for clues for a way out. In your case, Jupiter is still in your third house, a place this great planet of good fortune has been based throughout 2008. (If you feel Jupiter has not been working, know that Jupiter was retrograde and weak for much of the recent time - but no more. Just you watch and see!).

This is why I mentioned your sister or brother as helpful to talk over your recent thoughts, plans, and any concerns, as Jupiter will enlarge and deepen your relationship in a warm and very wonderful way.

If you have never had a good relationship with your sibling, this year could change all that, so keep an open mind. This December, offer an olive branch. You may see the riff you have between you and a sibling heal, for December 2008 represents one of your best periods in more than ten years for healing your sibling relationship. By January 5, Jupiter will leave this placement, not to return until 2019, so while you have this advantage, use it!

There is another bonus to having Jupiter visit your third house - your ability to communicate clearly, intelligently, and possibly even with humor will be superb all month. and that may help you in a business sense. Your mind will crackle with ideas, and since Jupiter is in Capricorn, the sign ruling humor, you could come across as quite relaxed and funny (even if you aren't)! This will help you be perceived as a winner, and one everyone will want to have you on their side. If anyone tries to outtalk you or paint you in a corner, you'll be sharp and see this to be true - and you won't let them!

If you need to sign a contact this month, do so on December 26, a day that will bring gifts of stability from Saturn and Mercury, or even better, on December 31, when a highly lucrative outcome is likely, thanks to the combined gifts of Mercury and Jupiter. If you need to do so earlier in the month, December 1 sparkles too, due to the interplay of Venus and Jupiter.

Your home may be a focus, and if you want to dress it up with color and flowers, do so once Venus enters your home sector from December 7 to January 3. Next year, 2009, brings sensational news for real estate and fixing up your home. We will talk more about that next month, so stay tuned. Jupiter is heading to this area and that's going to bring huge advantages to you all through the coming year!

Your friends also seem to be playing a big role in your month, and you will see much more of them. Mercury rules the friendship area of your chart and this planet of news will be unusually active in December in a highly friendly, encouraging way. You can count on your friends, and they will be there for you when you need them most. This is a great comfort! You will consider your friends as your family, and certainly they will want you to think of them that way.

You may find that romantically, you will be more involved with group activities, like parties, which, for Scorpio, is unusual. You tend to prefer one-on-one get-togethers, but this month seems to bring you into the center of holiday festivities. It will represent an enjoyable change, so relish the time to see your pals.

Quick, short travel appears to be on the agenda too for a noticeable part of your schedule in December. Even though it looks like you won't go too far, what you do will be fun and relaxing. Your opportunities to get away will open up spontaneously and quite unexpectedly. If you say you have no money for extra gas or overnight accommodations now, this trend will be so strong that it looks like someone loves you and wants to be with you. That person will help make your trip(s) possible.

Once the new moon appears in your travel sector December 27 and in the ten days that follow, even more luck will flow to you. A contract may appear and generally, all kinds of news coming to you will be comfortingly upbeat.

If you were born on October 30 or within five days of this date, you will benefit most.

For New Year's Eve, no matter when your birthday falls, you may drive out of town to accept an invitation to a party or to have a very special dinner out at a luxurious restaurant. The moon will be in Pisces then too, an ideal placement for Scorpio, for the moon in Pisces will encourage meaningful exchanges and tender romantic moments.

Also, Mercury will conjoin Jupiter on December 31 - the only time this year - and this is a sensational aspect, especially for travel and news that reaches you. In fact, all the news you get on New Year's Eve, even earlier in the day, should be completely unexpected and quite thrilling - and that could include news about money. By evening you'll have a certain glow that will be unmistakable, dear Scorpio! Who could resist you?

So fun! Haha damn and I regret not going out on NYE now. Shit. I would have met a mysterious stranger, prolly handsome too. Mwahaha. Damn it.

Anyways ok, i'm tired so yea. Blog next time! Ciao people! =)

2009-01-06T00:30:00.000-08:00

more collages! haha it's just the 2, coz i got kinda bored and tired of making them lol. Enjoy~

so i was supposed to go for some kinda job interview thing at Peace Centre today.. At 12noon... But I slept at 530am.. Woke up at 1150am.. HAHA. So there goes. I'm toying with the idea of going to the gym in a bit, or skipping rope in my room instead. Haha. I've kinda been dying to go to the gym but I remember the facilities to not have been as good as the ones in the Richmond gym back in UB.. So I dunno yet. Plus I have to pay!! =(

Well hmm event-blog... And thought blog!! lol. ack. I'll blog later. I wanna read/play the piano now. HAHA. See y'all in a bit.

loves!

hehehe. yay=) small victory

2009-01-05T12:24:00.000-08:00

just thought i'd let you guys know what you're waiting for.. here's a peek!!

haha yea. kinda have been inspired lately to do some photoshop work, especially after reading angie's blog (hi angie! haha).. so yea! been wanting to do those high contrast kinda collage-like affairs for awhile. what better occasion to use pictures from than the fantastic shangriLa treat and subsequent day out? hehe.

ben! waddya think? worth the wait right? hehe. ok onwards to making more collages!

i've also been editing pics to make them more blog worthy! coz I picked up a new skill today to edit those pics that are horribly backlit! hehe. here's a sample!

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heh waddya'll think? looks better? heh. i edited quite a buncha stuff to do with lighting and colors. lol forgot to edit the subject though lol.

so yea! lotsa stuff to come and lots of thought-blog to follow too! stay tuned.. =) love~

2009-01-02T01:54:00.000-08:00

sometimes i think i blog just to dump things from my head onto some other outlet. there's so much stuff swirling in my head i wish i had a pensieve (i.e. in the Harry Potter books).. then i could take them out and organize them. in a way that's what this blog is.. haha.

anyways, i've changed the layout since it isn't really Christmas anymore (bloody hell, CNY is in 3 weeks! haha cannot wait.) Speaking of CNY, i think it's the only festival I will miss when I (note the word WHEN, not IF. haha) move to the States. It's the festival I will keep coming back for. Even after I'm old enough to NOT receive angpows anymore. It just is the festival I really like that isn't so well-celebrated in the States. I mean everyone knows my favorite festival is.. (do you know it?) HALLOWEEN but that can be celebrated in the States. In fact it's way better in US than in Singapore. So is Christmas, New Year, Easter and all the other festivals I celebrate. Only CNY is best in Singapore.

i love the cuteness of this layout hehe. Ok we'll have the event-blog first then i'll post the thought-blog. So yesterday was New Year's Day.. I had another really chill day =) Xyz came over at about 11am and we chatted, had lunch, chatted some more, unpacked my stuff and cleared out some stuff from my closet!! I have way too many clothes that I don't wear anymore haha. Don't worry val and ben, I kept the slutty stuff. HAHAHAHA. Oh and I showed xyz the hot new one-piece i bought with nic. So slutty. LOL. We're going SWIMMINGGG woohoo. Ok so xyz left around 5+pm, then my family came over for dinner and I hung with the cousins. We watched youtube, snooped around on Facebook and played Britchy.. Then later I had a nice chat with Josh! lol. As in my cousin ah. Yup. Spent the rest of New Year's Day and well, this morning, applying for various jobs. Let's keep our fingers crossed people!

Here're some pics left over from New Year's Eve..

wit cousin Josh =) he needs to learn how to take pictures prop'ly lol

Yup. As for today, I kinda woke up at 4pm (slept at like 5am haha. was up applying for jobs and watching Friends on youtube ok! Lol).. Made arrangements to meet ben for our Shangri~la high tea tomorrow!! It's 1130am omg i'm gonna have such a tough time waking up. Ben said "You better sleep early ah" lol. We're meeting (i dunno where) at 11am. I'll have to get up at 9am to wash up and get dressed so I can leave at 10am! Haha. And yea here I am on the computer now. Lol. Oh my last package came in!

I sent like 3 packages home on the 9th before I left Buffalo. Then as I was packing up I had not enough room so I left 2 boxes and asked Eugene (Singaporean guy from NTU who was on exchange at UB. Lived just downstairs of me in the dorm!) to ship them for me. So i sent a total of like 5 boxes home (VERY VERY EXPENSIVE. don't ask) and the first one got here before Christmas.. It was my pot and mug and boots and other stuff lol. Then my Left Behind box came remember? Yea ok then like 2 days after that Eugene told me they sent one of my boxes to his place instead of mine.. (For some reason Eugene thinks my last name is Zra... -__-"" I just realized I never told him what my last name is WAHAHAHA)

And today I just realized that the last package (one of the 2 i asked eugene to ship) had arrived. BUT BUT BUT there's one package that isn't here!! I'm really worried and I dunno if there's a shipping number or anything. I'm scared! That's kinda the most important package with my gifts for ann and val, my books and a lotta other such stuff!! Sigh. I really really really hope it arrives soon. =(

so, no colors for the prev 2 paras lol coz i got lazy. do you guys prefer WITH colors or without? i gotta decide haha.

So anyways on with a bit of thought-blog. So i was all psyched up and ready to apply for that going to the States in May thing when I realized something.. I've already kinda got plans for May-Sept! My friends from the States are coming over in May! The jap people and maybe Tiantian! And also, I'm supposed to go overseas with my friends during the Summer break! If I apply for the work in America thing, i may be triple-booking myself for summer..!! OMG why does this always happen.. lol.

Well i'll have to think about this and see what i'm gonna do.

I wanna actually blog about what a year 2008 was but am kinda bored and distracted now haha. I wanted also to post up a list of new songs i've been listening to. They're not really NEW but new to me.. Haha. A lot of them are what i'd call white music k coz i got to know of many of these artistes when working as a DJ at UB.. Yup. Go and listen to em if you get a chance!!!

Listed as they are on my shuffled ITunes list now:

- Pumpkin Soup by Kate Nash
- Music is my boyfriend by CSS *
- Wish We Were Older by Metro Station
- Now That We're Done by Metro Station *
- Lloyd I'm Ready to be Heartbroken by Camera Obscura *
- Your Kisses Are Wasted On Me by The Pipettes *
- AEIOU by Charlotte Sometimes *
- I Never by Rilo Kiley *
- Singular Girl by The Old 97's
- She's Expensive by The Virgins *
- Bonafied Lovin by Chromeo *
- Tears for Affairs by Camera Obscura *
- Come On Get Higher by Matt Nathanson *

-those with *s are my favorites but they're(those on the list) all the nicer ones anw. haha

OMG nvm there are really too many. Over 90 songs! So let's forget it and you guys just find good music on your own haha.

Right I'd better go coz I have to sleep early tonight and I still wanna get my Friends fix. Haha. I will blog more soon and this time, you know i will haha. Btw for list of new year's resolutions, check out my note on facebook. Right.

Ciao people. Love~

nothing to say today. hopefully nothing to say anymore.

2008-12-31T11:30:00.000-08:00

happy 2009 one and all ~ =)

so I had kind of a mellow New Year's Eve. Went to visit the old tuition kid t1, mainly coz I missed t3 soooo much! The little darling~ Sadly, after I disappeared for 4 months, she didn't really remember who I was anymore and I had to rekindle (lol) the familiarity and all. But yea we got back on the right footing again! Stayed there for quite awhile just chilling with the girls and their mom.

God she is so adorable

Seriously, how could anyone be THIS cute?? I'm so in love with herrrr~ (i'm serious. I'd kidnap her if it weren't a felony)

With t2 trina.. Who's a little princess herself. Heh

Then went for family gathering as per tradition... Hanging with the cuzzies is kinda fun LOL. I love torturing (i.e. raping. LOL) some of them *ahem* DING *ahem*. We had lots of fun =)

Lol ding is doing something grossssss. HAHAHAHAHA. He's gonna kill me if he knows i posted this pic and then drew attention to what he's doing. LOL. And yes ding is cute! Haha. Too bad i'm related to him and he's younger than meeeee. loll. He looks like Peter Petrelli, and Joey Tribbiani.

Yea. Haha and plans to go for some form of fun countdown thing all fell through. Stayed later than I'd expected at Godma's.. I originally wanted to club but found myself lacking the energy to do so.. Sorry charmaine! =( Picked mom up at Goodwood Park Hotel after her wedding dinner thing, passed by Orchard and was super turned off by the amount of well, foreigners there. Then saw the countdown party at Marina on TV and was turned off by the crowd and the image of Adrian Pang singing.

Really just wanted to hit a pub somewhere but then turned off by the lack of public transport available to get me home at 3am (ideal time, to me, for me to get home) So yea, all these conspired to stop me from going out =(

Anyways yea had a chill NYE haha. Meeting up with xyz tomorrow for lunch =) Should be fun heh. Alright time for Song of the dayyyy

Next Plane Home - Daniel Powter
I woke up early to baby blue eyes from the afar whoah whoah
and when the sun comes through and lights you like the angel you are whoah whoah
I know I do you wrong when I’m with you I’ve been gone

With every season change, it looks the same (november to june) whoah whoah
And dont these empty streets skip a beat the flowers dont bloom whoah whoah

I can’t believe I missed your birthday again
and I wanna come back but I just don’t know when now

And I’m so lonely your not here with me
That’s why I’m gonna be on the next plane home

The road that never ends around the bend I see your smile whoah whoah
I’d swim across the sea to be with you for a while whoah whoah
cos I’m made a life would be gone
now the way that I feel I just don’t belong

And I’m so lonely you’re not here with me
thats why I’m gonna be on the next plane home
And you’re you’re the only face I wanna see
thats why I’m gonna be on the next plane home

Stand around try to make every moment
and be somebody yeah anybody
it seems the whole world is taking me over
I need somebody to help me get back to it

and I’ve always been a million miles away
but things are gonna change
I just wanna come home

And you’re you’re the only face I wanna see
thats why I gonna be on the next plane home
yeah I’m taking the next plane home
Now I’m getting the next plane home
Now I’m taking the next plane home

Lol the application of this song is a little bit weird but yea. It's also kinda upbeat, but well. It's a nice song =)
ciao guys! happy 2009! resolutions in next post =)
i'm staying away to save myself

2008-12-30T01:14:00.000-08:00

so i had a fun day yesterday!

went out with nicole babe =) we hit TOWN like at last hahaha. had lots of fun ok. first we met up at Wisma, shopped a bit, talked a lot, realized that TopShop (the place we wanted to meet at) had closed down wtf. Went to Bebe and stylistically analyzed every item of clothing they have LOL. Then headed to Wheelock coz I wanted to get a book from Borders lol. Had freaking too much fun there laughing at weird books. I ended up getting something by Sophie Kinsella.

Had early dinner at around 4pm at nydc@wheelock! Sat there for 2hrs+ just chatting chatting and chatting omg I love chatting wit you nic!!! Damn we talk too much abt dirty stuff. HAHAHAHAHA. But I love it! lol. Oh and another thing I love about hanging wit nic is how we can complain about hating some things about Singapore, what we miss about UB etc.. We can miss US together!!! Heh. Camwhored a bit too =)

After that, we made our way to FarEast, shopped TOO MUCH there! And laughed a lot tooooo sheesh. OMG i had so much fun i just can't believe it. We also took pics of the Xmas lightup along Orchard rd and all. Yea.

Pics are on facebook so head over there to lookie =) Ben! If you don't wanna get fb then you're just gonna lose out!! haha. I'll occasionally post links to fb albums but now i'm just lazy =)

On the home front.. Lol. I've been reading and reading. It's sooooo goood. Therapeutic. haha. I'm re-reading the Left Behind series that I fell in love with i think 4 years ago? Yea. Lol. I bought them online in the States and shipped them home lol. The package arrived a few days ago so I've been reading it. NICEEEE. I love just lazing around and reading at home hehe.

And lol. In typical Cherlynn-fashion, I've managed to actually triple-book myself for today and did not realize it till last night. I was originally supposed to drop by my tuition kid's house today to visit, and forgot all about it, so made plans to meet nic for bowling. Then after that I forgot about that and agreed to meet up with MESC. So i turned MESC down, told nic I couldn't make it, and woke up today feeling altogether too lazy to go anywhere. So i stayed at home!!! Hahahaha. I rock.

Oh wells. I really should get to properly unpacking haha. I've still got a bunch of stuff left to unpack hahaha. Jetlag is kinda wearing off though i still feel awake at night and sleepy in the afternoons. Haha. Oh but I'm suddenly having this desire to do some webdesigning so I think I'm gonna go off and create a layout for a new website. Right, that's what i'm gonna do. HEHE. Alrighty ciao people i'm off to do some designing! lol.

Oh yah, song for today! This was kinda for a more angsty period too though somehow i'm not THAT angsty now. Hmm. But it's a nice song anyways so here goes =)

The Piecs Don't Fit Anymore - James Morrison (didn't I tell you i liked his songs? HEHE)
I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit here anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

I don't know why

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit anymore

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why

Yupyup! Ok off to Photoshopping now! Ciaoooo~

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried

2008-12-28T04:26:00.000-08:00

3 Songs of the day to make up for the previous lack of.

Leaving on a Jet Plane - The Corrs
All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breaking it's early morn
The taxi's waiting he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

CHORUS
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now they don't mean a thing

Everyplace I go I'll think of you
Every song I sing I'll sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

CHORUS

Well the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Then close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave you alone
About the times I won't have to say...

CHORUS

This song is so totally appropriate for those of us who had to leave UB=( Parts of it apply to friends, parts of it apply to those with lovers. Parts i italicized apply to those I think it applies to. Haha.

Next 2 songs are just for angsting's sake.

I Drive Myself Crazy - N'Sync
Lying in your arms
So close together
Didnt know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you

How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark

I lay awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake
When I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

I was such a fool
I couldnt see it
Just how good you were to me

You confessed your love
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free
And now Im left
With all this pain
I only got myself to blame

(chorus)

Why didnt I know
(how much I loved you baby)
Why couldnt show it
(if I had only told you)
When I had the chance
Oh I had the chance

(interlude)

(chorus)

Why Are We Still Friends - 98 Degrees
We do almost everything
That lovers do
And that why's it's hard
Just to be friends with you
And everytime your heart is broken
By the fool I want you to know
That it hurts me too
It's hard to wipe your tears away
Knowing you should be with me, tell me

Chorus:
Why, why are we still friends
When everything says
We should be more than what we are
And tell me why
Everytime I find someone that I like
We always end up being just friends

I would hate for you to find somebody new
Who you really love
Cause it could mean losing you
But am I a fool girl not to say
If I'm always scared I'll lose you anyway
Somehow someway I've got to choose
Got to choose no matter if it's win or lose

(repeat chorus)

Bridge:

I don't want to be like your brother
I don't want to be your best friend
I only want to be your lover
When will this end?
If I told you that I want to be in your life?
Then you could be the woman in mine

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If any of you find the above 2 songs familiar then you must know me very very well. They're from really long ago, from a cd from someone =) They just happen to really apply now.

So there you go. 3 Songs of the day! Enjoyyyy~

i'm not thinking anymore. just don't think. it'll be better

2008-12-28T00:09:00.000-08:00

sometimes i definitely think too much.

and this time i think maybe it's time to stop thinking. I want to become a careerwoman! Just focus on work and school and work. Eh i notice this is kind of a cycle that I go through lol. DAMNNN

So what I was gonna blog about was how I was agreeing that I'm always being cryptic. And I know why. Because I'm extremely afraid of putting things OUT THERE. It's like once I say it, I can't take it back. I can't pretend like I've never felt a certain way. So I'd rather keep things to myself.

Val can't stand it. It leaves too much room for regret. But somehow I think I'd rather live with the regret than the rejection. Though of course the only 2 times I've admitted to people that I like them (not counting that time when I mentioned in passing how I thought TS was cute and tong decided to out me), both times I've been reciprocated, which shouldn't actually be traumatizing for me. TWICE!!! That's kinda amazing to me lol. And I only did so when I was almost completely sure of how the other party felt. Well the 2 people were Melvin and my ex. I told melvin only after that time he almost died. LOL. I think coz I was having too much of an adrenaline rush.

Yea but it just makes me wonder sometimes because I NEVER meet guys who will openly tell me they like me. I mean like guys i LIKE. I get the all-out-desperate kind like *ahem* someone, who will go like, "Hey babe/princess/hot stuff/whatever, are you free soon? Can I date you?" Which is just PUKE-WORTHY. Or I get the 'trying-to-be-discreet' kind like "I'm lonely, can I msg you then?" after a long string of msgs. Which was just too bad i wasn't in the mood.

Otherwise, I get the stupid SEND-A-SONG kind. Which really just drives me nuts because HELLO??? Unless the song you choose to send/dedicate/whatever has lyrics that go, "CHERLYNN THIS IS ABOUT YOU, AND SPECIFICALLY ETCETCETC", else songs are just generally too damn vague!!!! Like xyz and I were saying the other day, there are too many parts to a song for it to be sending just ONE message. So how are we supposed to know which part you mean? The "I wanna break up" part? Or the "I'm moving on" part? Or the "i loved you at the beginning" part?!?!?!?! Yah. I hate it because it has not happened only once. It's fucking annoying. The worst thing is when they send you the song and then either ask you to listen to it and don't say anything, or become all cryptic like "oh the message is in the song". I'm like WTF?!

And then i turn around and there are girls like xyz or shui or uh, any of my other hot girlfriends. Who constantly get guys confessing to them. And you just start to wonder wth is wrong with yourself (apart from the fact that you're simply not as hot/desirable/etc). Just as you were about to blame it on ball-less Singaporean guys having no guts to say anything, you hear about all these other Singaporean guys who apparently HAVE balls. SO WTF IS WRONG!?!?!

Lol I am amused at how pissed off I sound. But yea anyway back to the main point. So if you can't take it that I'm too cryptic, then don't read it!!!! Haha. That's why I put it all in smaller words anyway coz it's for me to put 'out there' without being 'out there'. You don't have to read it.

And back to the point I was making at the very beginning. I don't know what to do anymore, coz upon reflection and hindsight and way too much thinking, I've decided that despite what others might think, there really wasn't anything in the first place. So I should really just move on. I don't want to, but it seems to me that we're at a point where nothing's gonna happen anymore. This point of view might change but with the way things are going, I seriously doubt so.

Don't think too much, don't ask on the blog. Ask in person. I'll tell. In the meantime, enjoy the fun-ness that is this blog. And remember, I love you guys =)

2008-12-27T21:03:00.000-08:00

tsk tsk. guess what. i was in church just earlier and for like almost half the homily i was thinking of what i wanted to blog about.

you know what the worst thing is? I FORGOT WHAT I WANTED TO SAYYYYY

damn.

that'll teach me to daydream in church. haha. so anyways, here's an update on my christmas doings. met HNL ppl for Xmas lunch at MindCafe Purvis!! So I went after Christmas Day mass at church and my parents gave me a lift so I was there at 1150am when we were supposed to meet at 1230nn. Yea we were supposed to meet at PS. Ok so when I arrived I just went to hang out at the shops first... Ended up buying a gorgeous pair of C&K shoes. Lol. So anyway, people started msging me to say they'd be late, which was super annoying. At about 1245pm I made my way to the MindCafe near PS.

When I got to the door, i realized the place was closed so I called the people up, checked my reservation time, REALIZED I WAS AT THE WRONG FREAKING PLACE!!! Lol. I'd gone to the Prinsep street one instead of the Purvis one!!. SIAN. I'm sure you guys can understand how i'd make that mistake ok. HEHE. So anyways, caught a cab and got to the Purvis one in like 10mins.

So anyways ok Kor was the first to turn up. And after he turned up he kept insisting that because i JUST arrived, he wasn't late. FINEEEEE whatever!! Idiot. Then liwen turned up so we started off with some 3 player games first. We played some really fun games like DIRTY MINDS and uh, I can't remember what else lol coz dirtyminds was so engaging WAHAHHAA. The basic premise of the game is that you're given clues to something that's entirely CLEAN, like a pot or a toaster or stuff, but the clues are DIRRRTYYY... Like I had to describe the word "Crane" and the clues I had to read were:

1) I assist an erection
2) Huge balls swing from me
3) i cannot rmb lol

yeaaa!!! super fun game. We played it later with William when he came and I must say william thoroughly enjoyed the game lol. It really is a boy's game hahaha. You know you wanna play this game hahahaha. So anyway, Jim came later and we played taboo, and Co-Motion which was charades with two teams at the same time, kinda fun.. Haha. Oh and the Wrong Game, which was very fun!!! Haha Then kor had to leave, and William arrived like super late. We played more taboo (Singapore version! Quite hilarious) and Jim left, then william's girlfriend weeting arrived... We played more DirtyMinds and the wronggame and yea.. Got tired and left.
Speaking of which a lotta people owe Liwen money! Remind me to facebook about it.

Had family dinner at RTC's Chinese Restaurant, which is really kinda lame. I mean, Chinese food for Xmas? Tsk. It was bad enough my family kept wanting to eat Chinese food when they were in the States for like all of 5 days. Wait, it wasn't just my family it was like all the people in the tour group save a FEW who were not from China or who were not OLD. Like, wtf? Yea well to each his own I guess. Meh.

Ok so here are some pics from Xmas lunch!

Ordering food. MindCafe decided to act smart and make their menus in the form of a newsletter. Very err... Creative. Confusing yes, but creative. Ahem.

Wenz!!

That game ;)

Kor and the dirtyminds booklet

Guess who's the dirtiest of them all?!?! Go to facebook to find out haha.

Figuring the game out

The weirdness that is Co-Motion

The weirdness that is Jim
(i'm getting back at him for calling me fat!!! =( )

William turned up all dressed up coz he was gonna spend xmas night with his girlfriend!!! wo0t!

I think it's ok to show this pic now since weeting would have gotten this by now! Lol. William painstakingly made this (ahem children's) book for weeting for xmas! They've been together about 2 months. I think it's sooooo cute!! And of course he got her other stuff too, but anw, CUTE!!!

Lol. So sweeeet. All guys should learn from william. MWAHAHAHA

Will and Weeting!

Liwen and i =) (what is up with our hair????)

hehe yea. There are tonnes of videos too so I'm gonna remember every single hilarious moment haha. And you know there are many. Omg i can't wait to go DeCoder's or MindCafe or Settler's again with another buncha friends. Wheeee.

Ok I'm gonna end this post with a huge shoutout to NICOLE!!!! Love ya babe hehe. I just gave her my url so she's reading. Yayyy.

i really cannot for the life of me remember what I was planning to blog about when I was in Church. Dang. Will prolly remember it later. Blog then. Ciao people and enjoy your day =)

just gimme a sign. because i really don't know if i should wait.

ooh yea. val mentioned i'm always so cryptic. lol. YES. I. AM! haha and with that, I remember what I wanted to blog about liao shit. LOL. well, i'll blog about it next time. HAHA. love you guys byeeee~

2008-12-26T04:21:00.000-08:00

i'm busy playing games. and hitting my piano =)

and here's a fun game:

lol. hit up all the music, dance floor etc, then do the funky moves! the last one is kinda cool coz she laughs. haha.

or if you're more like me you'll like this one:

haha. but my fave games all come from maggie something shit i forgot the url. lemme go find them hmm... anyways. just the thoughts part of the blog..

so sometimes i wonder if i'm the only one waiting or are we both waiting.. hmm.. no way to know for sure though it seems like it is. if we both are waiting then there isn't really a need to wait. LOL. ok doesn't really make sense. but i'm feeling a lot less antsy than before, which is good =) all thanks to a little something called rationalization. also coz well, yea. it's all in the little things. if you don't know, well i want you to know i'm waiting. though it's kinda weird coz i don't know what's gonna happen in the future and if i'll keep waiting/wanting to wait. and i know for now i'll wait and i don't expect you to wait. although with time, everything seems less real, less important.. =(

on a side note: i may be going back to the states for about 10weeks in Summer next year!! Wheee! Can't wait. Some work-live-play in America program =) Hehehehe. Can't wait can't wait can't wait!!!

ok blog more next time. Had a great chat on the phone with xyz yesterday!! Hehe. Love ya babe. Let's chat more next time!!! Meet up soon? =)

I love all you guys~

2008-12-25T10:16:00.001-08:00

helloooooo

don't worry if i don't blog. it probably means i'm happy haha. yea, i'm in an ok mood =) had a rather fun past coupl'a days. lots of thinking going on but eh, not gonna do that now coz i'm gonna try and sleep at a relatively normal time for once ( it's 2.15am now lol).. I've been sleeping at 5 or 6am the past few days.. In fact, since I've returned to Singapore it seems I always fall asleep at around 7pm, wake up at around 10pm or 11pm, then stay awake till 5am before sleeping again, then waking at 11am. LOL.

so anyway, no Song of the day today coz the song I wanted to post was kinda angsty and I'm not in that place right now =) so Xmas was good, had fun with the family. Didn't take pics. Loot wasn't that great, some good gifts and some crappy so it kinda evened out.. Went out for Xmas lunch with HNL people today lol.was ok. Then Xmas dinner with family. Yup. Will have more detailed blog about it later.

In the meantime, I'm in the midst of changing my blog layout. I've actually set up a new blog already (http://myausterity.blogspot.com) but I have no idea if i wanna use it.. I'm actually fine with sticking with the Cherffalo url since it still kinda applies.. And my austerity sounds just a little bit morbid lol. Vote, you guys, whether you want me to move or stay! Tag and let me know haha. But anyways, the layout on the new blog right now is definitely gonna be the next layout so you can take a look! ahaha. I think it's cute. So yea. Big decision to make lol.

Alrighty, gonna blog more next time. I'm getting really broke and oh i bought a gorgeous new pair of shoes today. Lol. I'm not going out for the next 3 days so my bank account can take a breather. Tsk. Overspent and i NEEEEED TO WORKKKK. Sigh.

Right. See you guys next time, ciao!

i don't know if it's because of my effort, but thanks for trying! =) I appreciate it, and I'm happier for it

2008-12-23T03:05:00.000-08:00

yay more outings to update about..

so yesterday (Monday) I went to tong's to meet up with the MESC gang for major mj-ness! When I first arrived, LTA was there with his friend shawn/sean/whatever.. So LTA, S/S/W, Tong and Mich were playing yup. Then LTA relinquished his seat to me (at a fee of $4!!) haha and so it was my turn!

Lost very badly coz damn mich keeps jinxing me. Seriously i can't play with her. Always lose money with her around. So I lost $1.20, so totalled with what I had to pay LTA, i lost $5.20!! Then anyway, LTA, S/S/W and Mich had to leave to go to different things so tong & i hung and waited for Eu to make her grand arrival (to NO fanfare lol) It was way better but sa-ka isn't as fun as four players.. Haha. We had a steamboat dinner thanks to tong's mom. I have some random pics to show.

Game in play.. Haha. Tong was arguably the biggest winner of the sa-ka and well, i earned $1.. so you can very well imagine how Eunice did.

My chips near the end...

Tong has more chips than she knows what to do with!

Eunice has that ONE chip left. LOL (j/k. she had somewhat less than my drawer of chips lol)

So we played till like, 1+ in the morning and had ta stop coz Eu and I were both tired lol. I was still jetlagged.. In fact i am STILL jetlagged. Coz I keep sleeping at odd timings and refuse to adhere to Singapore's time. I wanted to take the train home till I realized we missed the last train and I had this big epiphany about how there are things such as the LAST TRAIN/BUS and all. I'd forgotten all about that since I didn't take much public transport in the States. That's not to say the buses or trains ran all the time. I just didn't take public transport much. So yea we cabbed back. Damnnnn..

Got home at around 2, showered, flatironed my hair, slept at 5am or so! Expectedly, I overslept this morning and had to rearrange the timing for meeting up with Ann!!! We eventually met at 230pm at 6th Avenue (yay angmohs. LOLLL) We had a nice looong chat =) (my favorite kinda outing) and all. Haha. Ann took quite a few nice pics of/for me! Babe you've got a skill going here. Haha. Here're some of them.

Ate venezia=) Though nothing really beats soft serve back in the states ahhaha.

Ann dear shunning my attempts to take a pic of her!

Took some pics =)

The series of pics that Ndear took! Haha. The original pics are nicer coz they're all aligned perfectly!! lol.

My pic of Ndear!!! So cuuuute! haha

After some eats we went to Cold Storage to walk walk... Now Cold Storage is my new fave place to walk coz it has all the stuff I used to buy in Buffalo hehe.

Nice day! hee. love ya dear=) (above pic was slightly photoshopped)

Nothing much else to report =) Spending a nice quiet Xmas eve tomorrow. Yay. Alrighty ciao people!

2008-12-21T07:29:00.000-08:00

lalala. church today, then family gathering. sweet little yangster came and hugged me and wouldn't let go for awhile! i've missed him!

funtimes with the yangster. he's adorable =)

played with the cousins. britchy britchy!!! haha. but it was fun =) and 99!

yupp.. family fun=) and backstabbing and bitching. haha.

forgot to show you guys the christmas tree we have at home. Mom used colorful lights this year instead of the regular gold ones. These ones blink also, so when I get home late at night i almost definitely tri[ and fall down the stairs coz the lights make your vision severely impaired. haha

ehhs yea i took it as i came into the house last night (this morning lol).. looks nicer in the day i think

with the lights on haha. i had to time this since they blinked randomly. lol

yup.. haha. so as per the new tradition, here's today's Song:

James Morrison (yes i'm lovin' his music! this is an old one) - You Give Me Something

You only stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep
I was meant to tread the water
But now I've gotten in too deep

For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might know my heart

You only waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what they mean

I never thought that I'd love someone
That was someone else's dream

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might call you from my heart

But it might be a second too late
And the words that I could never say
Are gonna come out anyway

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might know my heart

Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

NICEEE. Haha. Another James Morrison song for tomorrow lol I'm listening to it now actually. But I shall keep it a mystery! Whee!

i give up. i don't want to pretend i'm anywhere else anymore. i'm happy where i am, torturing myself, right here waiting for you.

i'm holding on because i know sooner or later we'll move on. and when that day comes, i don't know what will happen. i admit i'm at a loss.

it's hard. very very hard.

lalala nothing much. in a surprisingly chipper mood. alrightyyyy ciao ppl! I'm STILL UNPACKING gosh.